...:::Elysium:::...~The Odyssey~

Thankful for Life.

2011-03-31T00:44:00.002+08:00

What a long journey this has been...

And yet there still such a long way to go...

What's so special about it, is that I'm enjoying every step along the way~

I am thankful for every single thing I have in this world.

I am thankful for a blessed, loving and supportive family.

I am thankful for a cool and awesome father who quit smoking many years ago not just because it was bad for his health, but it was also putting mine at risk.

I am thankful for a caring and patient mother who spent those days and nights helping me out with things I wouldn't have imagined possible without her help.

I am thankful for a great and wonderful big brother who gave me lots of advice, and prayed for me constantly.

I am thankful for my awesome friends, old or new, who brought in lots of laughter and joy into my student life.

I am thankful for the things in the past, be them pleasant or not, for without them I wouldn't be who I am today, typing all this right now.

I am thankful for what I had, have and will have.

As I have said, there is still an extremely long way to go in this journey...

... and in every step, there is always something new that colours my life.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CYNTHIA!!!" came shouts, messages and songs all over.

"Happy Birthday, my dear girl," came the sweet voice of my mother from the other side of the phone.

and just like that...

I'm 19 now...

... and I am thankful for that too.

Baking a Cake

2011-02-15T21:54:00.003+08:00

To bake a cake, one needs the desire to actually begin baking a cake.

One can bake a cake for a reason, or just for fun.

To bake a cake, one needs to know the basic idea of how to bake one.

One can strictly follow the recipe, but if the recipe is followed from start to finish, there wouldn't be original... in other words, it wouldn't be YOUR cake, would it?

The amount of ingredients used for the cake may vary... it need not be precise.

One may make some mistakes at first, or not know how to proceed... but with experience, one gets better and better at baking it.

One may need the advice and help of others. One may choose to follow or not to follow the advice, but some of them really are helpful, especially from those who have more experience at baking.

To bake a cake, one has to have the expected amount of patience and never give up, even if the cake doesn't end up the way one desires it.

To bake a cake, one shouldn't complain or blame anyone or anything if the cake doesn't turn out as expected... because it is YOUR cake. Instead, figure out how to improve the cake.

To bake a cake, one must believe that the cake will turn out well, one way or another... because belief can make unexplainable, wonderful things happen.

To bake a cake, one must actually put their heart and soul into it. One must love it because without love, the end result will be less gratifying. One should enjoy the process of baking the cake, rather than think of it as a gruesome and tedious process.

To bake a cake, one must realize that rather than a cake made perfectly the first time (is there such a thing?), or a perfect cake that has already been made for you, one made through trials and self-experience is much more meaningful and rewarding.

One also must realize that improvements can always be made, and learning never stops.

Finally, once the cake is baked, the best way to enjoy it is to share it... because a cake for oneself is never delicious ;)

Baking cakes is just like living life, ain't it? xD

New Year ;)

2011-01-03T00:09:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year, everyone!

Make your resolutions, and make sure you actually do something about it xD

Don't just talk, walk the talk!

It's time for changes, as well as time to learn and unlearn xD

So yeah, have a blessed new year, everybody!

Later~! xD

Year-End Holidays and New (with the Old) Discoveries

2010-11-29T02:17:00.003+08:00

Yep, it's the Year-End holidays~!

In fact, I just arrived in Sandakan last night~

Just as promised, here's a longer post than the previous few xD

Well, let's flashback to yesterday...

I spent several hours in KLIA walking around, finding my way, etc etc... all alone xD

The place is huge! And the architecture is amazing! But it's sometimes easy enough to lose your way xD

That ain't a problem though, I did ask around a bit and found my way eventually without any hassle.

The great thing about being in the airport alone is that I could freely explore the place, look around me and admire the whole place...

It was awesome! It felt just like being on a secret adventure/mission or something xD

The cons though - I had to drag my baggage everywhere! Even into the toilets xD But oh well... they got home safely, just like me... so that's what matters xD

Anyway, the moment I got onto Sandakan soil, I was thinking... "Ahh... so many trees~" xD

I then got past immigration, grabbed my luggage and put them onto a trolley...

As I pushed the trolley out slowly, I looked ahead for my parents...

And when we were reunited, they told me that they almost couldn't recognize me!

Did I really change that much?

Oh well... xD

Well, now it's just the second day of my month-long holiday, but I'm beginning to relive some things~

For instance, I accessed my old external HDD that I left here and got some old songs that brings back so many memories...

The other thing is, I started playing the electronic keyboard again (by myself)

The songs that I hadn't played for years since I've stopped... ahhh~~~

I've got quite a lot to for the holidays...

Of course, I need to maintain my Russian knowledge xD

I'm gonna play as many songs as I can...

Get started with some Japanese (and German)

Big bro's comin' back next week!

We're gonna spend all the time we have with our family and friends~!

...and who knows what else 8D

...oh wait!

I remember...

I'm going to South Korea!!!!!!

Whoooooooo~~~

We're gonna have a blast xD

Later~!

Study Week

2010-11-18T19:45:00.004+08:00

Yes, yes... I know...

Sorry for not updating this for such a long time...

Well... this week is Study Week... and next week is Exam Week =P

Study Week... the precious 1 week may seem like a lot of time, but really, it isn't O.o

Next week, after exams I shall be going home on Saturday =D

But before that, I'll need to do clearance first...

Meaning, the whole room has to be empty... including lockers, shelves, everything.

I've started with my clothes and some extra books so far...

and I'm doing food stock clearance as well...

The food stock ain't much, but it's gonna be a week of eating and drinking in the hostel xD

No matter...

About the exams... I'm not sure how much I can actually go through before sitting for the exams, but heck, I'm just gonna do the best I can...

I felt like I kinda wasn't myself for a moment...

but I'm comin' back on track!

It's not really a bad thing, in fact it helps one to discover and improve... take it as a sort of "experiment" or... "secret mission" =D

Oh well... that should be all for now =)

I suppose I'll make another post just before I depart back to Sandakan next Saturday ;P

That should make it up for not posting for so long.

Alright, just finishing up on my cup of Milo + Milk,

now I'm just gonna relax a bit, take my shower and prepare as always ^.^

Later~!

Changes

2010-10-24T20:27:00.002+08:00

It's been quite a long time since my previous update...

So here's a simple one.

I'm making certain changes... it's like trial and error...

I'll try my new methods for this coming week =D

I'm still learning, and learning never stops. That's the best part of it.

I'll come up with a longer post when I'm more free and have more to post about xD

Later~

Die Welle

2010-10-01T17:59:00.002+08:00

Я смотрела очень интересный немецкий фильм на последнем немецком уроке. Я люблю этот фильм. Этот фильм "Die Welle".

Translation: I watched a very interesting German movie in the previous German class. I love that film. The film is called "Die Welle".

Not too sure if the grammar is all correct or not, but that's the main idea I wanted to express... Of course the sentences are still rather simple, but that's still the level I'm at currently >.< style="color: rgb(255, 204, 153);">Basically, the movie is about a group of students called "Die Welle" - hence the title, and their teacher as the leader of the group.
The story starts of with a mild start - normal life, a bit of funny moments here and there... just normal student life... (or at least what's considered normal in Western culture)

Then it gets messed up - seriously messed up. In fact, so messed up that it leaves a rather disheartening feeling in me after I've watched it.

The end didn't ease the feeling either. It was so..... mixed..... I could not categorize it as a happy or sad ending - or both - no matter how I try. It was just so... way beyond words.

I don't think I should spoil the movie, because the true feeling comes from watching it yourself (though I doubt most of you would do so).
I have, though, told the whole story to a few of my friends who have not watched it... and though their reactions weren't as strong as the ones who actually watched the whole thing, it did have somewhat of an impact on them as well.

Why do I like this movie so much?

Well, first of all, I found out at the very end from the German teacher that the movie itself is based on a true story. That made the whole experience all the more creepier.

Second, for me the movie is very symbolic - in so many ways.
The plot itself is set in modern Germany, however it raises questions about the country's bloody past, about Nazism, about fascism.

At the beginning of the story, the teacher questions the class:
"Do you think autocracy can happen again in Germany?"

The class, initially does not agree at all. However, the teacher then decided to "experiment" on the students. He imposed rules, made them more "patriotic" and turned them into a close-knit group called Die Welle.

Then things turn ugly. (No spoilers here - go find out yourself xD)

Ok, so let me list out the symbolism I find (in my opinion) from the movie.

Die Welle - Nazi Germany

The students - Nazis

The teacher - A very strict German leader (i.e. Hitler)

School uniform - Military uniform

Synchronized marching to disrupt the class below them (lol) - Working together to destroy the enemies

The student's eagerness to follow every single order of the teacher - How easy it is for people to be manipulated. It also somehow shows how people seem to obey Hitler without any complaints.

The respect of the students towards the teacher - We all know for a fact that Hitler mass murdered enemies without mercy. History tells us that he was a cruel "monster". But that wasn't completely the case during the time of Nazi Germany. In fact, Hitler was supported and respected by many (because at that time people were more focused on winning against the enemy rather than world peace). Hitler's charisma and influential speaking styles made him a well-respected leader to many - that is, until the Nazi started to fall apart...

German culture - My German teacher told us after the movie that in Germany (right now) students don't wear uniforms at all. Furthermore, unlike in Malaysia (where we sing Negaraku every Monday, and even hear it on the radio every single morning), in Germany they do not have this sort of rule.
In fact, quite a number of them do not know the complete song... that is the case even of the Russians.
If you were to ask me why this is so, I would say that it is most likely an indirect effect of the past. Unlike Malaysia, which has never been involved in any big war (merely been "occupied" by greater forces), countries like Germany and Russia have a deep and bloody past behind them. School uniforms terminates discrimination between the rich and the poor, but it limits freedom and is similar to the military system of the past, where uniforms are almost always associated with the militia.
As for the anthem, I believe it is the same case. Anthems are meant to raise patriotism among citizens, but it does carry some sort of risk of raising "ultranationalism". It also reminds Germany of its past where soldier march and sing the anthems with great pride, even upon death. (I think O_o). This is not to say that they are any less patriotic just because they do not have the rule of singing the national anthem, but it just shows how the culture is molded from the past, whether good or bad.

There may be more symbols that I didn't include here, because that is all I can think of for now xD
Well, all in all, the movie had a HUGE impact on me.
When a student used a gun and pulled the trigger, I felt as if I was shot. The other students watching the movie all jumped in shock as well. That shows the power of the movie.

That's it for now ^^
A rather long post, eh?

Later~!

Discovering and Rediscovering.

2010-09-26T02:33:00.003+08:00

Hey, it's been some time since I updated, so here goes...

I've got to say, recently I haven't been feeling like myself.
Yeah, it IS HARD to describe what's NOT MYSELF, but yeah... xD

Well, it's a good chance for me to sort of... rediscover myself.

I mean, as we all know it... learning never ends.

We learn and adapt, learn and adapt, learn and adapt...
...and that process never ends.

But that doesn't mean we can't have fun while doing so, right?

See?

That's it for now...
I know this post is really short, but oh well xD

I'll do some discovering, and once I find some interesting things,
I'll include them in my next update ^.^

Later~!

Spend Your Time...With Them.

2010-09-15T01:08:00.003+08:00

Hello~!
It's been over a week since I came back to Sandakan...

A few more days and I'm heading back to Shah Alam...

Nothing really much to update here, just to...err... clear the dust xD

Well, as someone who has been out from home for several months,
I can tell (and/or advise) those of you who don't spend much time with your loved ones to do so.

It doesn't matter whether you are in good or not-so-good terms with them, they are precious and they are irreplaceable.

Spend as much time as you can with them. You will never regret that.

Show them how much you care and love them... because every moment you spend with your loved ones goes by ever so quickly.

Eh, I'm tearing up now... what the--- xD

Okay, it's quite late/early now... so I guess I ought to retire to bed.
I have to wake up early to have breakfast with my parents~ ^.^

Later~!

I'm home.

2010-09-04T22:57:00.002+08:00

The title of this post is pretty self-explanatory.

That's right.

I'm home.

=)

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan ke-53, Malaysia!

2010-08-31T11:01:00.004+08:00

(Except for this sentence for clarification, I shall type this post completely in Bahasa Melayu, since it is Malaysia's official language and today is a very special day for beloved Malaysia... P.S. Don't ask me why my Bahasa Melayu sounds so "baku" (formal?) I'm already accustomed to this style xD)

Pertama sekali, sebagai seorang rakyat Malaysia yang telah menyesuaikan diri dengan gaya hidup dan budaya Malaysia, saya amat berbangga meraikan Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia =)

Saya tidak akan berpanjang-lebar, hanya mengambil peluang ini untuk mengucapkan "Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan" kepada semua rakyat Malaysia. Saya amat berharap bahawa semua rakyat akan berasa gembira dan merapatkan lagi hubungan antara satu semua lain di samping menguatkan semangat perpaduan dan kekitaan. =)

Tanggal tiga puluh satu,
Bulan lapan, lima puluh tujuh,
Hari yang mulia, hari bahagia,
Sambut dengan jiwa yang merdeka~

SELAMAT HARI KEMERDEKAAN KE-53, MALAYSIA!!!!

A quick update, and a week left.

2010-08-29T19:32:00.004+08:00

Alright, alright...
I'll just make a quick update.

Hari Raya is just around the corner, and what else?
I'm coming home soon!

I'll be back on the 4th of September, on an awesome Saturday night! ^.^

And I must say, I'm pretty psyched about it~
Going home (finally) for two full weeks~! (I must say, I honestly think 2 weeks is kinda short, but oh well ==)

I wanted to visit Sung Siew, but from what I've heard the school is also having holidays... and they overlap my holiday time completely. So I guess it's a no-go T.T

Also, most of my friends would've gone back to their respective places by the time I get home T.T so again, I guess no-go...

No matter, might as well make the best of what I can do ^.^

This coming week, though, I have a few tests that I have to sit for before I get to go home~ Well, well~~~ it's alright~! It's always alright!

I guess that's it. A super quick update.

Later~! Just one more week, baby! Love Sandakan ^.^

Running Down the Way Up

2010-08-15T18:51:00.003+08:00

The lower centers in me revolve around,
Derive their meaning from my self will,
As I watch the sun highlight your Midas touch,
Conscious light gets through somehow,
Yet I always fail to notice,
Yet I always fail to notice,
I’m always headed for the ground...

The hot mid-August weather finally cooled down a little by rain, falling from the endless sky...
That's the way it is here in the INTEC hostel...
On the weekends, it's really quiet and somewhat lonely.
Most students, especially those who live nearby return home with their parents.
Watching them happily hand over their luggage to their parents who put them in the boots of their cars, driving off to home, to comfort...

From conditioned red,
To conditioned red,
Heading for the ground,
Then amber flashes...
From conditioned red,
To conditioned red,
Yet I always fail to notice,
I'm always heading for the ground...

Well, it can't be helped anyway...
I live "overseas", so though it seems a little unfair, I'll just bear with it.
I'm going to return during the Hari Raya break, so at least I do get to go back sometime...

While some went home, others went to the nearest, busiest city - Kuala Lumpur.
1-2 hours by train from here, and you arrive at the hectic and packed capital city.
Though we're just a journey (or two apart), it seems almost like a different world.
Kuala Lumpur is always bustling with happenings, lively, noisy, fast-paced...
Just outside of INTEC, here, however is slow (almost lazy)-paced, relaxed, quiet...
...Sort of like sweet ol' Sandakan...

The visible effect runs through my blood,
As I watch the sun highlight your Midas touch,
Conscious light gets through somehow,
I always fail to notice,
I'm heading for the ground...

"How's life?"
"So far so good"
I mean, what else do you expect me to answer?
"Russian language is so damn hard, I can't stand this, why did I choose this, etc etc..."?
...No.

I'm going along with it,
And up or down, I'm going to make sure I cherish every bit or it.
Seriously, how do you live life with all these worries crawling up your leg?
Those things are not meant to be.

Has desire found a shady avenue?
Standing above - below me,
Has desire found a shady avenue?
Standing above - below me,
And I always fail to notice,
Yet, I always fail to notice...

There are times I felt stronger than ever,
There are times as well that I felt ever so weak...
There are times of sureness,
Yet there are times of doubt...
But as long as I hold on to faith,
...anything is possible.

So I hold on tightly.

Always running down the way up and you're standing there,
Always running down the way up and you're standing there,

And if we doubt we can hardly hope to shine,
And the sun could eventually be outshone,

Always running down the way up and you're standing there,
Always running down the way up and you're standing there...

I've had some really odd dreams recently,
I don't really understand what they mean,
I don't even know if they're supposed to mean anything...

Maybe...............................

Some conscious light gets through somehow,
Yet, I fail to notice,
Then I'm heading for the ground,
Always running down the way up...

Always running down the way up and you're standing there,
Always running down the way up and you're standing there...

Sometimes, the fear and doubt comes seeping back somehow...
It's so quick and sudden,
Almost like a panic attack...

And then somehow I manage to fight it back down.
I don't know how I shake it off that quickly,
Maybe my will is strong, or maybe I had help...

Maybe, just maybe...
...Maybe someone's watching me, protecting me...
...Someone from above?

So yeah, everything's going fine!
I'm all good,
Everything is awesome, as I always tell myself and others...
And there's thing song that's always stuck in my iPod...

I gotta feeling,
That tonight's gonna be a good night,
That tonight's gonna be a good night,
That tonight's gonna be a good good night!

Songs: BT & Hybrid - Running Down the Way Up, Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling

C,A,, IKEA, INPRO and the Russian Language.

2010-07-31T01:01:00.002+08:00

It's been about half a month since I've last updated!

Sorry for being so late...
but I've been really, really busy recently.

It's ten minutes past one in the morning, and I'm aware that I'm supposed to be resting, considering how I've been getting 3-4 hours of sleep (at most) for the past week and that I'll need to wake up 5-5 1/2 hours from now.
But then, now that I have some time, I ought to do some updating, no?

Anyway, here's a summary of what has been going on for the past two weeks...

I went to Campus Alive last Thursday (wow, it was last Thursday? Felt like a long time ago...) It was quite awesome ^.^
but what was more awesome was my trip to IKEA and The Curve last Saturday night. IKEA food is quite expensive, I'd admit =.= but really delicious *thumbs up*

And as for this week, we've had (last minute) preparations for our performances in INPRO (Something like Sports Day here in INTEC)
Seriously, the Russian team, being such a small group, lacked the manpower and management to handle the job.

Therefore, the past week of staying up, practising and depriving ourselves of sleep are, were, well...
frankly, not worth it.

HOWEVER, that totally changed today (I mean, last night... since it's already past 12)

I think we did a pretty awesome job at improving our steps and synchronization. All we need to do now is to put it all together, continue practising and then it's INPRO time, all taking place tomorrow!

So, yeah... it's gonna be a wonderful day, tiring, but awesome!

Well, enough with that...
Let's talk about the Russian Language.

I've been receiving lots of questions about how it is to learn Russian, this and that...
and I'll tell you directly:
It ain't easy.

In fact, it's almost (read: ALMOST) frightening. There are so many twists and turns in the language, and having 16 hours of Russian classes per week, it's quite intensive and we're gonna have to catch up with whatever we've missed. (Since we've been tied up with the INPRO practice and stuff...)

Let's take English plural nouns for example. (and I'll type Russian with English letters)
Table would be table. (Stul - stuli)
Book would be books. (Kniga - knigi)
Pencil would be pencils. (Karandash - karandashi)

Simple, yes? NO!
Furniture remains as furniture. (Vinagrad, meaning grapes, also stays the same)

Stimulus - stimuli (Stol - stolya (chair))
Fungus - fungi (Brat - bratya (brother))
Cerebrum - cerebra (Sistra - seostre (sister))

And to add to that, Russians differentiate gender O_o
This is my brother. (Eta moi brat - male)
This is my sister. (Eta maya sistra - female)
These are my parents. (Eta mai raditeli - plural)
This is my state. (Eta mayo gosudarstvo - neutral gender)

The same applies to words like your (tvoi), our (nash), their (vash)... and figure out the female, plural and neutral versions by yourself xD

Alright... we've recently learned about adjectives as well as question words...
and the same rule applies:
The general word for "good" is khorosho, but this changes according to gender (of both humans and objects)
"Khorosho!" - Good
Eta khoroshi karandash - This is a good pencil. (masculine)
Eta khoroshaya sumka - This is a good bag. (feminine)
Eta khoroshoe okno - This is a good window. (neutral)
Eta khoroshie ruchki - These are good pens. (plural)

Alright, enough with the Russian mini-lesson. My teacher said that it's pretty much just the tip of the iceberg. Only about 5% O_o''

Anyway, here's a mini guide to the common words, just for fun xD :
Hello - privyet (informal), zdrasvuite (formal), zdrasvui (informal)
Goodbye - do svidanya (formal), paka (informal)
How are you? - Kak dilla? (informal), kak vashidilla? (respectful, formal)
Good/fine - Khorosho
Bad/poor - Ploha
Thank you - Spasiba
You're welcome - Pajalusta
I'm sorry/Excuse me - Izvinitye (respectful), izvini (informal)
It's alright/nevermind - Nichivo
Nice to meet you - Ochin priyatna
I love you - Ya lublu tebya. (Я люблю тебя)

Alright, that's all for now xD I've got to get to bed now...

Do svidanya! До свидания!

Later~!

A Wednesday in INTEC...

2010-07-14T17:44:00.002+08:00

Zdrasvuite!

Today's the third day of school here (at least for my course)...

A long update here:
Life's great so far. Yes, it's starting to get busier... but that won't stop us from having fun ;)

I think I over-budgeted... I originally planned to use less than RM 10 per day, but I find it quite difficult to do so...
especially after buying that Russian dictionary... ==

...Well, I'm going to save up after this. I have a somewhat sufficient stock of food in my room, so I suppose I ought to be fine not spending money for things other than those required by the school.

My wallet's getting thicker... with coins and one ringgit notes to replace the fifties and hundreds.

Anyway, I'll blog a bit about Russian classes here.
Russian classes are awesomely interesting. ^.^ It makes me feel like a kindergartener learning ABCs all over again xD
Yes, it is quite challenging... but it all depends on mindset.
If you believe it to be tough and useless, then it will be tough and useless to you.
If you believe it to be fun and fascinating, then it will be fun and fascinating for you.

All in all, learning Russian is khorosho! (good/fine)

Next... any changes in me?
In terms of physical changes, I don't know... ==
My clothes FEEL slightly looser... but I don't see any change in the mirror xD
So it's either I don't notice, or my clothes are getting bigger xD

In terms of mental change...
... quite a lot.
Not a lot as in COMPLETELY, most of me is still... me.
But I've learnt quite a lot from INTEC, especially orientation week.
Also, my Russian programme classmates are really awesome. We're a very close-knit group.

My NOISY roommates are also quite a handful xD But we're all a pack of fun ^.^
I suppose we get along quite well, joke around a lot... but we never argued or fought.
If any of us wants to use the bathroom first, we'll tell each other and gain permission. Now that's what I call awesome!

My family has been really supportive as well.
I make it a point to call my mom every single day. (Those who have travelled out with me will know this very well xD)
I update her with whatever's happening around me, and we still feel as close as ever.

Oh, right... I have yet to mention...
My course has been prolonged from 9 months... to 14 months!

I have no idea how that happened, but it doesn't really matter to me...
In fact, it can be somewhat of a good thing. I'm still going out to Russia next year, I get to stay closer with my family a little longer, and I get some more time to learn Russian =)

Today, my classmates and I met our Physics teacher for the first time (first Physics lesson). And I simply blurt out a question to him.
"What do you think of Russia?"

The whole class was waiting eagerly for an answer.
He thought for a while, and he finally spoke.

"To me, Russia is kinda like a 'mystery country' lah..."
"Why?"
"You see, let's take America for example. We know their lifestyle, we're influenced by their culture, we know a lot about America. But Russia... we barely know anything."
""
"But Russia is one of those countries that don't need to import technology from anywhere. They create what they want for themselves."
"=)"
"Some people say Russia is bad, but I don't think that's true lah... though I've never been there myself"
"Khorosho! Khorosho!"

That's it for now =)
Do svidanya!
Later~!

First Day in INTEC

2010-07-04T19:59:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!

Today was the registration day for INTEC-UiTM.
Over 700 JPA scholars registered here.
And guess what I found out?

There are only a tiny (countable) amount of Russia-bound students.
The majority of students are under the A-level and AUSMAT programmes.
Also, as I observed, most of the students are from Selangor.
The number of Sabahan students (girls) can be counted with the fingers of one hand!

Anyway, after registration I moved in with my parents to...
block 6, room 302 (SILENT HILL OMG)... Anyone who has played Silent Hill knows well what room 302 is xD

But the dorm rooms are much more spacious than I thought they'd be (considering that my mom brought my brother -and I've been there before too- to INTEC last time, and the dorms were really dirty, dark and small)
But as it turns out, they're great! I like it ^^

Also, I've got to know my roommates better, and thank goodness they're all really nice people ^^ That's really important, because we'll be relying on each other a LOT~!

After that, comes all the orientation and stuff...
Now I'm back in my room for a short break, but in less than half and hour I'm going to have to go back for another briefing session until 10:30 p.m. (haven't bathed yet T.T)

So far, I'm feeling pretty good =)
My parents left to the hotel for tonight, and they'll go back to Sandakan tomorrow.
I must say, the moment they left, I was like... *watery eyes*

...but now I've calmed down *blushes* xD

Oh well, I'll blog more (and even post some pictures) when I get the time.
For now, that's it! Gotta go~

Later~

Adventure

2010-07-01T23:48:00.004+08:00

My 50th picture posted in my Facebook's "My Artwork" album =)
Full picture HERE

Here it is! Post number 180!
And it's July 1! (Well, it's gonna be July 2 by the time I finish typing this post xD)

I've (almost) finished my packing...
It's finally time... to further my studies =)

Oddly enough, I don't feel particularly "psyched" nor nervous or anything.
I think I can sleep well later xD

Anyway, I'm going off to Shah Alam tomorrow ^.^
Registration is on 4th July, and classes begin after =)

Well, I don't know what else to type here xD
I'm just making the sentences as I go along.

Once I get the chance to go online again...
... I'll update this =)

Everyday is an adventure... and this is no different =D

This.is.gonna.be.Fun.

Until then =)

Those familiar feelings...

2010-06-28T01:28:00.005+08:00

"Wish me luck."
(Full picture HERE)

Yes, yes... another post just several days after the previous one...
It's probably surprising for some as I "obviously" don't update so quickly xD

Anyway, I'm typing this to share my experience of drawing the picture above...
No, not about how I came to get this idea, how I wanted to do it, etc, etc... =.=

Well, let me put it this way:
I decided to draw a super-detailed picture... just as a challenge.
And so I spent quite an amount of time planning, sketching, drawing, filling in the details and shading. There were breaks in between drawing sessions, but I estimated the time taken to finish this, excluding breaks to be about 3.5 hours.

And mind you, under normal circumstances I won't spend that much time on drawing a picture... coz I'm the type of person who prefers doing quick things and getting them done quickly.

But this picture... it's so different. It evoked so many familiar and new feelings and thoughts...

You see, I've always been wondering... what's going to happen once I start doing something long-term? What of the end result? What if... what if it doesn't turn out well? Even if it does... how can you be sure?

I've been facing that sort of scenario for I-don't-know-how-long... for years I suppose.

And that limitation makes me take the "safe way" pretty much all the time.
Of course, we all know that the safe ways are safer - but they are not necessarily better.
Also, it makes me opt for quick methods as well. Sometimes it's just normal... because I want to draw something simple, or because I have just a little time for instance...
However, if this preference for quick methods limits one's confidence to get something done in the long-term, that's something to face and conquer.
Again, quick methods are not necessarily better - as quicker and more time-saving as they are.

Alright, enough on that. I'll get to the good part.

So I decided to draw the huge picture... and my experience was... strange (in a good way)
3.5 hours... not of "I want to get this done quickly!!!", or "Why am I doing this...?"
but 3.5 hours of pleasant, exciting moments.

And then I thought...
What's this familiar feeling?
Yes, the experience was kinda new, but at the same time it was really familiar.

Maybe it was the feeling of freedom before doubt started to clog everything.

Anyway, I was enjoying the moment so much that I actually finished it around 3 hours and 15 minutes... but it was so fun that I didn't want to stop T.T
So I tried to add as many details as I could... and in the end... extended the time to 3 and a half hours.
But even then, I was like "Aww... it's over?"

Well... I uploaded it anyway. And I must say, the satisfaction that comes with completion is awesome and rewarding.

So what have I learned from this experience?

Don't be fearful and doubtful of the unknown. Instead, face it and along the way love and enjoy it.

So... if any of you have any fears and doubts of anything... you should go for it. Who knows, you might be surprised by what you experience ^.^
At first when I started on the drawing I was like "errr..." but look at the result~!
I love this picture, not just for how it looks... but what it taught me...

Of course, not all results are guaranteed to be good, but that should stop anyone from continuing... it's just that if something doesn't work, one should rectify the steps and reflect, rather than just "bulldozing" ahead stubbornly.

Yet another long post, huh? xD
Well, I just had to get that out ^.^
P.S.: Today when I was having dinner something just came to my mind all of a sudden...
A quote that says:
"Life doesn't suck - you just suck at living"
which made me LOL internally and prompted me to post in on Facebook... hehe

Alright, that's it for now.
Later~!

Journey to Acceptance

2010-06-26T01:32:00.003+08:00

What's your perspective of life?

Okay~! As promised, here's my "Journey to Acceptance" post!
Note: This is gonna be a helluva long post (but at least I colour-coded them to avoid boredom? xD), so either sit tight, or don't read this if you don't want to... but you'll probably be missing out on a lot.

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Still here? Alright then! If that's so, I'll just get started then.

Every single day, we read/hear comments, stories or thoughts of people about how crappy their life is. Heck, many of us do that.
Every single day, all I read online are people's sufferings and anger.

And what baffles me more, is how people talk about "Changing into a new image" and in the end, they end up just like before... or in some cases worse.

Well, I'll get back to that later.
Last month, I checked for my JPA results, and I saw... RUSSIA!
I'll admit, at first I was like "WHAT?! Seriously??"

And for several days I was torn between accepting JPA and changing courses.
And to make matters worse, the comments from people about studying in Russia weren't encouraging in the least either.

Seriously, I do think that we are mostly stuck in the UK-or-Australia-is-good mentality. I don't deny that they're good (coz they ARE), but to dismiss another country that one is not too familiar with is just... jumping to conclusions.

Indeed, I've read comments of actual students in Russia talk about how much they are suffering, how bleak their futures are, etc...
And that had seriously made me concerned.
In fact, I got so worried that I actually fell ill! (Not seriously ill, but ill enough to be considered... ill)

And then, I thought about a quote that says "Every cloud has a silver lining"
And I tried to cheer myself up, because there really is no point moping about something... it's just an utter waste of time and energy (and in my case, my health as well =.=)
So I launched "Operation Restoration of Optimism (ROO)" for one full week (it's one of those things I imagine and make up myself... I even typed the whole thing in my Facebook xD)

Within that period of time, I've read and heard the news about thousands of people appealing for JPA, comments from people who didn't get it about how they would boycott JPA, have no future, the end of the world, forced to enter form 6, etc.

And to be completely frank, I DISLIKE (and that's being polite... the more accurate term would be quite rude) people who only know how to complain and complain and complain. Sure, I know they have their reasons to complain about something they find unpleasant. I'll admit that many years ago I used to complain about things too.

I'm not kidding. Just read my old blog posts and you'll see a big difference xD (This also shows that keeping a blog or diary can help one with changing behaviour xD)
I started to reduce my complaining around SPM time (or after SPM) because I realized that constant complaining, mocking, and moping about my problems isn't going to solve anything - they simply invite more problems.

And it's around that time as well that I found out how annoying it is to hear complaints. We all know that it isn't a pleasant thing at all to hear people complaining to you about their misfortunes, whether you are involved or not. It's natural that people prefer to hear good news from someone they chat with, rather than an awesome spam-age of bad news!

I must say, Operation ROO restored a good deal of my optimism =)
Of course, I still had my doubts. And those doubts somehow increased yet again after I was "sabotaged" by everyone telling me "Why Russia??" "Think properly! It's your choice, not mine, but THINK PROPERLY" "Why the hell would you wanna go there?" "Haahhh... I see....." Even the doctors in the hospital said that Russian graduates were very incompetent.

And then whatever was mentioned in my previous blog post happened =) Remember? The visit in my dreams from Taka... telling me that I'm not alone...
I woke up and felt like a completely different person... in a great way =)

By that time, I had become thankful and feeling blessed to actually be given a scholarship. I have absolute faith that I can overcome whatever shortcomings that may occur there.
Of course, it's not just about talking... I'm gonna have to walk the talk to prove it.

Recently, it was announced that there would no longer be JPA overseas scholarships starting next year. I was slightly stunned, yet at the same time not too surprised, considering how many appeals and protests they are getting from unsatisfied applicants. I'm not going to comment on the decision to phase out the scholarships, but I'll just say that it made me feel even more grateful for getting what I got.

But to those who think their hopes have been crushed, I implore you not to think that way. As I have stated before, negative thoughts only bring about negative events. You could tell me "Oh, it's EASY for YOU to say" and I can tell you this: "Yes, it IS easy for me to say."
And I can say it because I've been that way before. It's just that somewhere down the road, I couldn't bear living with negativity, fear, doubt, or anger for my whole life.

Currently, I am making my preparations to go out to Shah Alam in July... and next year, I shall be far up north =)
I may not know fully what lies ahead, but I can say confidently that I have fully accepted the fact (and directly or not, it also means that I have fully accepted myself)

So for people who think they don't stand a chance at being happy: think again, please.
One could say he/she wants to change for the better, one could do what it takes to change for the better... but the results won't show unless the change starts from the mindset.

Just keep in mind that every single being in this world has the right to have happiness. It just depends on how you obtain it. No matter what limitations one may have at the moment, there's nothing that cannot be overcome.

Also, I have another goal... other than pursuing my studies. I have a goal to inspire people... one way or another.
I didn't have this goal before. It just came to be this year... while I started changing myself. To see someone being happy and healthy is really rewarding =) It makes you ever so happy (and I'm not talking about ying-chau happy =.=... I mean GENUINELY happy!)
So if anybody has any problems, just come to me so I can practise my "inspiring" skills xD We might learn something new and exciting as well xD

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Ahh... that was a long post.
Well, I intended it to be longer, but this should do.
If any of you paid attention to what I typed... or if any of you took what I said seriously, then please take some time to reflect on it and think properly.

It's quite late---I mean, early now O_o
I'm gonna have to stop the post here xD
Well, again, think properly!

Later~!

A Dream, and a Visit from Someone Special

2010-06-20T17:40:00.003+08:00

Gosh... no words could express what I've been through the past week.

For some reason, I became very pessimistic again... =.=
Being deeply concerned about the conditions I'm going to face in the near future...

I've heard such a great deal of horrifying stories about life in (you know where), that I felt disgusted, literally.

The whole day, I felt horrible. I felt almost like giving up (and those who know me, know very well that I don't normally give up).

I asked my inner self for guidance, for help...
In fact, I became so worried that I was too tired, so I went to sleep =.=

And guess what? Someone payed me a visit... in my dreams (literally =.=)

And that person is... Taka!

Okay, in case you don't know who Taka is... it's weird to have to say this directly... but...
He's one of my characters~! Gahh... this is weird xD

That's him... (or at least how I drew him to be xD)
Taka, green eyes, funny attitude, created probably near 10 years ago or more... I don't remember =.=

Anyway, I have other "characters" you know... I'm just introducing one of them xD

Alright, anyway...

He appeared in front of me... and he told me this clearly...

"You're not alone."

... and that's all there was.
Holy crap?! How strange could it get? A fictional person, created by yours truly, actually appearing and telling me that I'm not alone?!

And that's not the only baffling thing.
When I woke up, surprisingly...
I felt so so so much better =D
Almost better than I always have been...

As puzzled as I am, I am so happy to have had that dream xD
I'm thankful for all the blessings I have in my life (and one of them is Taka xD)

Oh, yeah... I have yet to blog about my "Journey to Acceptance"
Well, this dream with Taka in it is pretty much part of it ^.^

But I'm gonna blog about it from the start in an upcoming post, I will!

Later~!
Count your blessings, you're not alone =)

Casio!

2010-06-13T17:22:00.008+08:00

Today, I went with my parents to the watch shop.
Originally, our intention was to buy a new watch for my brother...

Well, we did... =D We bought a BEAUTIFUL CASIO watch for him =)
Yeah, it IS expensive... but it's really eye-catching =D

That's his new watch =)
According to the research I've done online, it has a mineral glass screen and a stainless steel band...
It's water-resistant (to a certain degree, of course)
with something called Neobrite (the watch continues to be illuminated in the dark if it is exposed to light for a while... something like fluorescence, I suppose? Either way, I've "experimented" with it myself and it really DOES glow in the dark! OMG! O_O)

... it's just awesome!

And after an unexpected turn of events, I got a watch too!
Well, originally I was supposed to get a new watch NEXT YEAR... but... hehe...
Anyway, my new watch is really elegant as well~~ hehe

That's right... this one is my new watch~~
Casio Sheen something something---
As far as I know, the display screen is made from sapphire glass, and also a stainless steel band.

Its features are mostly the same as my bro's watch...
This one has a solar-cell panel (according to the internet, though)

But what really BAFFLES me... is the price O_o
Believe me, it ain't cheap.
(Well, in terms of branded watches, it's not considered expensive... but in terms of my family's usual expenditure, it's DARN pricey O_o)

To give you an idea, my new watch is 1/3 (or 33%) more expensive than my bro's new watch O_o HUH...

But anyway, I am really thankful to my parents ^.^ I'm definitely gonna take good care of it...
I'm also gonna keep using my old watch... I love it as well =)
My old watch was less than 1/2 the price of my new one O_o gaahh...

Heheh... this is my old watch.
(Sure the real thing doesn't look as shiny as it does here... it's a bit worn out and uhh... old-looking xD)
But it has served me faithfully for three years... (still young for a watch, eh?)

It has resisted three years of wear-and-tear, and it will continue to be worn by me, definitely!

Besides, digital displays are always convenient... ehehehe...

Wow, a whole post about watches... that's something I've never done before xD
Oh well, nothing else to type here.

Time passes so fast O_o it's already mid-June...
Another fortnight and I won't be in Sandakan anymore... Gosh...!

YUM CHA, ANYONE? XD

Later~!

It's June!

2010-06-01T16:08:00.002+08:00

Ahh~
Just got back home from Kota Kinabalu...
Enduring a harsh 6-hour car ride across the state is really rewarding once you get to sit down comfortably, knowing that you've persisted xD

Anyway, the trip to KK was alright... I got to see my family, I got to drink Starbucks (LOL), I got to buy some clothes and a pair of slippers...

Well, I've told the rest of my family in KK (no, wait... my parents told them, I just sat there silently xD) that I'm going to further my studies in Russia next year.

Oops! I forgot to mention in my blog before, didn't I?
Alright, I'll say it now. I got JPA scholarship to Russia...
That means, I'm going off to Shah Alam in July... and I'll be off to Russia next year~ (not sure what month yet, but I bet it's somewhere mid-year)

Okay, back to the topic.
I have to admit, I got many strange reactions... some were good, and some were just... weird.
Not only from my family, I mean...
From EVERYBODY. (Excluding my parents and my brother... they are really supportive and awesome... I'm so glad to have them T.T)

"Russia? Why would you go to Russia?!" (Why not?)
"Why did you choose Russia? Choose UK or Australia mah" (As if I had a choice)
"Yerr... not good oh... nanti kena #%*&^(#&%(Q@(" (What the heck?)

Give me a break, people =.=
Honestly, I've never (read: NEVER) thought in my life... that I would ever be studying there.
And another confession is that, I was at first less-than-impressed by the news.

Then I started to accept it, looking on the bright side.
And by now, I've almost fully accepted it.
Heck, every cloud has a silver lining. =)

I'll elaborate on my "Journey to Acceptance" in yet another post (because it's quite a long story)...
But the bottom line is:
I'm happy, despite the shortcomings that may come ahead.
And I'm gonna take it as a good challenge, a journey, an adventure...
...a SECRET MISSION! (Okay, not so secret anymore, but you get what I mean =D)

So wait for my long post~! When I get the time (and mood) to type it, I will ^.^

Now that I'm back in Sandakan, it's time to "enjoy" the hot, hot weather and lack-of-shopping malls and Starbucks while I still can =)
Sandakan will always and forever be my beloved hometown...

Later~!

21 May 2010

2010-05-21T20:03:00.002+08:00

JPA results are out.

To those who get it, congratulations!

To those who don't, accept it and move on.
We all have our chances, they just come at different times in different ways.

If you think it's the end of the world,
You think too much.

Fullstop.

Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare

2010-05-02T02:17:00.004+08:00

I know I haven't been updating this for... half a month...

But that's mainly because I don't really have anything to blog about...

Oh well... I can't just leave this outdated... I'll just make something up as I go along.

Recently, I played Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare (and finished it in one day - amazing record xD) I have to say, it's a spectacular game full of detailed graphics and awesome storyline. I just thought it was a tad too short =.= hmm...
Yeah, I know the game was released years ago... but the fact that I get to play it, it's good enough for me =P

However, in my opinion, the biggest impact the game had on me is that it really made me think of many, many things... Call me thinking-too-much-nonsense if you want, but I prefer to think of myself as... a deep-thinker... haha xD

Back to the topic, it made me think of the effects of war, comradeship and so on...
I mean, you actually get to be in the first-person view of a dying soldier in the game! Not only is that very innovative and detailed, but it makes you somehow experience it... (minus the physical pain, of course)

There is a non-standard GAME OVER, if you happen to shoot and kill any of your comrades. Some message will pop up, saying "Friendly-fire will not be tolerated."
And, wow... that actually made me feel bad for shooting my comrade, even though it was accidental.

The big difference here, is that while in the game you can get shot directly a few times before you get hurt, in real life that is definitely not the case. One direct hit, and the person is most likely gone.
Also, while you can restart the game again and again if you fail, that certainly does not apply in real life...

So, really... what's up with war?

Man, I'm making myself emo =.= I'd better stop here before I won't be able to get any sleep xD

Well, on a lighter note, I've recovered 75% from my cold.
Wait, I had a cold!?
Oh yes, I did... it wasn't that bad... but it was bad enough to make me day dream nonstop and laugh to myself...

All I did was take some medicine, sleep a bit.
Once I woke up, boom! 75% recovered.
Some people say I'm made of metal =P

Oh well... that's all for now I guess...
Later~!

Being thrifty...

2010-04-12T19:02:00.002+08:00

Today I went out with my pals again...

Well, yeah I've been going out quite a lot lately, but hey...

... while we're all still here, might as well spend and cherish whatever time we have left together, no?

So anyway...

I know it's just one day (and fortunately it is)

but I think I've spent a little too much...

Okaaay... it's not that much actually (RM 16 bah)

but it's not something I'd normally do =="

For your information, my usual daily expenses are about...

... anywhere between RM 0 to RM 3. Yeeaaaahh....

Well, what did I spend RM 16 on? It's not shopping, I can assure you =="

Shopping is definitely not my kind of thing.

Okay, get ready. RM 12 I spent today on Pizza Hut with my friends =="

Pretty reasonable, if you ask me.

Another RM 4 is spent on about 2 hours of CC-ing... okaaayy....

Later in the evening, we went to De Venice (or whatever the name was... I forgot ==")

Everybody ordered something to drink except me xD

Not just because I want to save money, but because I was still full from the pizzas =.=

Besides... RM 7.80 for a glass of 'something' is a bit too...

...err... let's just say my typical drink at a kopitiam would be RM 1++...

So am I thrifty? Damn right I am xD

And I am proud to be thrifty!

Of course, being too thrifty isn't good either...

But I try my best to be average-thrifty xD

I know a whole bunch of extreme spendthrifts,

some normal money-users,

a few rational ones,

almost no thrifty people,

and totally zero extremely thrifty ones =.=

And yes, all this despite most of the people I know are of average income...

Is this a problem?!

I don't know... maybe not at the moment... but it could be a major issue in the future...

Hmm... what kind of money user are you?

Think about it =D

Later~!

No Man is an Island

2010-04-07T12:30:00.004+08:00

Recently, I started replaying Sonic the Hedgehog 3 & Knuckles.

I'll admit, it has always been one of my all-time favourites, and it will always have a place in my heart.

No matter how many times I replay it, I never get bored of it =D

I watched the Disney movie Fantasia 2000, because it is also one of my all-time favourites.

In February I replayed Parasite Eve (also a favourite)...

And that I did alone... but what about my buddies?

Yesterday, I went out with Chuin, Joan and William...to have some fun outside =D

Left 4 Dead (1 and 2) is another memorable game =D

I had an online chat session with Lai Kien Hiung...

and I helped out with So Lai (Lai Hsiang Juin)'s mini-problem xD

Oh, yeah... did I mention I discussed about formal clothing with Joan and Yennie?

I SMS-ed Crystal for a while...

I also spoke with Vun recently...

... gave some advice to Tung...

Chatted with Olivia too...

... and you know what I think?

I'm taking a trip down memory lane =D

Well, not necessarily with the people I knew from the past, but we are considered quite close nevertheless.

Remember those times when everyone laughed, shared and lent a helping hand?

All those awesome moments... right before the phrase called "get a life" someone influences everyone?

That's right. Once you reach a certain age or time, you start to drift apart.

No matter how close you say you are, there are certain times, when you are not as close as you used to be.

There are a lot of factors that cause this... busy life, change in mindset, external influences... and there may be a lot more.

But this trip down memory lane will only be a fun trip if you are not travelling alone =)

So everyone, try it sometime. Get reconnected with those who you think have drifted apart for far too long. The 'reward' is fantastic =D

As my classmates and I were all told by an inspiring English teacher last year:

"No man is an island".

Incoming, Eighteen!

2010-03-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

Post Number 170... and at such a right time.

Here I am, sitting at my desk in front of my laptop, thinking of what to type...

I am thinking of all those years before... where I kept going off somewhere...

But now that I've finished secondary school... and SPM is over...

The long, long holidays somehow allow me to do some reflecting...

... and a whole lot of mental training.

Because there is a certain time... when you are done banging your head against the wall...

You start to think... and you start to change.

And the results show it all...

Now I feel much more peaceful and calmer...

When I get annoyed, it just suddenly disappears a few seconds later, even I was totally surprised.

When someone else has something better, I don't feel really jealous or envious anymore. Instead I am somewhat able to be genuinely happy for others.

I try to help others now, instead of being overly self-conscious... So now I sincerely apologize to all who have been annoyed by my selfishness in the past... Let's bury the hatchet :)

I feel the need to share my story to others... not because I want to brag in any way, but because I know there is someone out there, thinking that life sucks.

Let me tell you something:

That's the way it is because you think of it that way =)

If one would change his/her mindset...

Then life would be precious and memorable, every single day.

I know of friends who have been with me for a long, long time.

I know of friends who bear with my shortcomings.

I know of friends who sincerely pray for my well-being.

And I am truly grateful to have these friends... who will stay in my heart for eternity.

Now for my family...

I know there are times when we disagreed.

I know there are moments when we cried and hugged together.

I know all of you were always there for me.

Family is always family... I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Gosh, I am tearing up!

So now that I am turning 18, people say that once you take a step into adulthood, you are free to do anything you want.

Others would say that you are now free from the clutches of family control.

But what I say is: Nonsense!

To me, turning 18 is no different from turning 17, or 16, or any other year.

Life will always remain to me as something fulfilling to be cherished =)

What do you mean "clutches of family control"?

I am no different to my family, I am no different to my friends, I am no different to people.

I still love everyone, and I'd like to keep it that way.

The only difference here is that...

... I have taken steps to improve myself since after SPM...

... and this 18th Birthday of mine simply signifies that---

---You haven't seen anything yet!

Sweet Eighteen, baby!

And so, I click on the "Publish" button, and I share this to the world~!

Peek-a-Boo!

2010-03-17T16:47:00.004+08:00

Look who just dropped by?

Peek-a-Boo! I see you!

This guy's all over... he's snooping around in my Facebook page...

Snooping around my iPod and mobile phone...

Snooping around my Windows Live Messenger display...

Heck, he's everywhere!

I don't know what it is about this picture that fascinates me xD

Green eyes are so.....I don't know...pretty?

Be careful if you see this guy...

Nobody knows as of now his true agenda...

Be very, very cautious.

JPJ Test~

2010-03-08T20:00:00.006+08:00

Today...Monday...

I had my JPJ test!

The test that enables me to get a P license, and therefore, drive on my own if passed.

So, yeah...by 7-something I was there...and I wasn't alone (fortunately)

From left: Jeanrette, Chong Zhun Ting and Wendy

On that day, there were 34 candidates...

...or more precisely, 34 hopeful candidates...including the faces you see in the picture above.

That's me, Number 20!

Wendy was 21st, Chong 22nd and Jeanrette 23rd.

That meant I was the first one out of the four of us with the same driving instructor.

We saw Vilton as well, Mr. Number 29.

Also, there were Ong Swee Peng, practicing on the motorcycle...

...and Seck Min Guang was practicing driving...

Anyway, we waited for our turns to drive uphill, go parking, cornering...etc...

Things pretty much went smoothly, until the moment I reached the cornering thing...

You see, we are only allowed 3 moves. (Enter, reverse, exit)

Any more or less than that = fail

So I was at the entrance, waiting for Number 19 to exit.

After that, I raised my hand to signal the JPJ guy ==

Mr. JPJ hand-signalled me to start, so I entered (1 move complete)

Suddenly another JPJ guy shouted and glared at me like I just killed a cow on the street ==

He asked me pretty harshly "Why did you enter when nobody told you to enter?!"

I answered "I saw him signal at me to enter..."

"Gostan (reverse) back, immediately!!"

He wanted me to leave immediately, so I did ==

I contemplated whether to just take a shortcut and leave or just finish up the two moves.

Eventually, I considered it as 'practice' and completed the remaining moves...pretty nonchalantly...

So once I exited, I made a U-turn to reenter, but the bum shouted at me again ==

He ordered me to drive back to the hill and stop there...(I thought I was done for...)

I did as was told and got out from the car.

Mr. Bum told me that they made a mistake...the JPJ guy actually DID signalled at me to enter...

So my "cincai"-ly done three moves was considered as the test ==

And luckily I didn't get tricked into giving up those remaining moves... ==

Well, other than that "what the---?!" moment, everything else went fine...

I got 19/20 for the third part (going outside)

Though I have no idea where the 1 mark went, it doesn't really matter...

What matters is that...

I GOT MY P LICENSE~!!

Okaaay...not yet...it's gonna be done on Wednesday, but

I PASSED MY JPJ~!!

Oh yeah~baby!!

So what now?

After observing the auto cars in my house...

I somehow find manual cars more interesting...

AUTOS ARE FOR LAZY BUMS!

...but they're better to drive ==

Oh well, I'm gonna have to get used to different cars first before actually driving out of my housing area...

Later~!

Leap of Faith!

2010-03-01T18:40:00.003+08:00

HYAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!

Went through so much trouble just to have this thing scanned =.=
Found out that my laptop doesn't have the plug-thing for the scanner *ishh*
So had to use PC.....(the condemned PC)

That's right, people!
Just take the Leap of Faith!
You'll never know where you'll end...
...but it's better than just staying stuck...!

Dear Laptop...

2010-02-19T20:06:00.003+08:00

Dear DELL INSPIRON 6400 LAPTOP...

It's been 1++ years since I became you're owner...
and yet, you are actually 4++ years old...

Apparently, I am your second owner, as much of a frustration it is to both of us...

...I suppose your previous owner either didn't treat you too well, or used you so frequently...
...that the first day I had you, you look like....

...errr...let's just say you were not in your best condition...

And now, your whole casing is cracked, especially at the sides...
...Your touch pad no longer works...
...Your CD compartment no longer opens...(although I 'forcefully' fixed that...)
...Your battery life has decreased a lot...from the 2++ hours of last time...
...to about 30 minutes or so...

You are very, very outdated...
With only 8++ GB left from your original 40...
The previous owner 'hogged' all your space...

Sorry that you need to work so hard...so painfully...
I know it's hard to keep up with me...with only 1.66 GHz...and 1GB ram...
I'm sorry...that you have to suffer so much...

The battery is dying, dear! I don't know what else to say...!

About a month ago, I requested the Dell company in Kuala Lumpur to check the price...
...what it would take to fix your casing...battery...touch pad...

What it would take to make it better for you...

But the price...was CRAP! (sorry...sorry...)
With the kind of price offered, I could get myself ANOTHER laptop!

However...you would be sad, wouldn't you?
To be abandoned like this...

...and I've only got to use you for a little more than a year...

Therefore, although there are a number of things I am unable to do with your limited capabilities...
...I am wiling to stay as your owner...

...at least until I feel like I am ready to let you go...
...maybe...when I further my studies in a university or something.....

(or maybe once you break down into a piece of junk >.<)

...Then we shall say goodbye...

(On the bright side though...) If you happen to still somehow survive, then you may still stay in my house, but then owned by another xD

As much trouble and frustration you've given me, dear...
...I can't ever hate you!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

...Time to recharge ^.^

Homer's Iliad

2010-02-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Sorry for (almost) neglecting this blog...

But really, I don't have the mood to blog at all...\
(I'm just not the blogging type of person)

Same goes to Facebook, MSN Chat, SMS, etc...

Anyway, since I have finally somehow pushed myself to post something...
...I shall post about Homer's Iliad!

Anybody who has studied SPM Sejarah (lol) should have at least come across the name... or it should at least seem SLIGHTLY familiar.

WARNING: IF YOU HATE HISTORY (OR HOMER LOL) THEN DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME READING THIS.

Homer, the alleged author of two of the most ancient pieces of literature in human history, Iliad and Odyssey, has somehow recorded the events in the story that apparently took place centuries before his time.

I've always been somewhat fascinated by ancient literature. (e.g. Works by Homer, Virgil, Shakespeare, etc...)

And after SPM exams, bored ol' Cynthia went around the storeroom, digging up 'relics'.
And I found a literature book - with Homer's Iliad in it!

Also, I bought another book while I was at Borders (bookstore in Australia).
Despite the exorbitant price (20 AUD = RM 60+++), I believed it was quite worth the hassle.

I bought.....Homer's Odyssey!!!

Just recently, I have finished reading the Iliad. And to be honest, it really exposed me to the cultures and beliefs of the ancient Greeks and Trojans.

Turns out things were quite different than I thought they were! I didn't know how wrong (and in some cases, right) I was about their culture!

Oh well, since Iliad was mostly about Achilles and Hector...
...and Odyssey will be (obviously) about Odysseus and Telemachus...

...I'm gonna start reading it soon!

Later~!

There comes a time...

2010-01-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

There comes a time...
...when things hit you when you least expect it.

There comes a time...
...when everything comes crashing down.

There comes a time...
...when only you can get yourself out of the situation.

Waiting to be motivated to do something...
...is perfectly useless.

More often than not, you can't rely on motivation to get something done.
You need to get something done to get motivation.

Inspiration...? Yeah, right.
What's the use of inspiration if there is no effort?

We all have dreams...

...but there comes a time...
...when we have to wake up.

2010's First Post

2010-01-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

Just got back from my holidays about an hour ago...

Too tired to blog about it now, so wait up, alright?

Anyway, I wanted to make a post for New Years, but it somehow never came to my mind that THERE WASN'T ANY INTERNET ACCESS...!

Well, forget about that...
Just know that I'm finally home (home sweet home)...and I'll post again soon...

Later~!

My Very Own Facebook Account!

2009-12-08T19:28:00.004+08:00

Last paper...Chemistry...

...and it's DONE!!!!!

Finally...11 days (for me) of paper, paper and PAPER!!!
(...Not that I don't like paper...in fact, I face paper everyday---while drawing)

Anyway, as I have promised many of my friends...(since SPM is over)

I'm opening a FACEBOOK ACCOUNT!!!

By the way, don't expect me to be so active =.=
I'm not a facebook freak...Oh well...

And guess what? The very moment I signed up and confirmed my email address...

...BOOM! 7 people requesting to be my friend! (O_o)
Some I know, some I have no idea who they are O_o (sorry if I ignored you whoever you are lol)

*scratch* *scratch* I'm such a n00b at this =.=

Anyway...my account name is...

GUESS WHAT???

It's Cynthia Chee (LOL)

Well...nothing else here...

Later~

Final Pre-SPM Post

2009-11-16T15:10:00.002+08:00

Yes...it's only two days before the big moment...

But why am I still online?
GOOD QUESTION...

...WITHOUT A GOOD ANSWER o_O

Nothing much to post here, really...

Just wanna wish all Form 5-ers good luck and all...

And yes...in case you're still wondering...my drawing habits never die...
I'm STILL DRAWING!!!!!

By the way...if you're looking for motivation before your exams, I certainly recommend that you do so.

...It helps more than you'd think it would.

In a strange way, it gives you a kind of...

...peace in mind.

My next post will be (obviously) after SPM is over.

Good luck, everyone!!!

Sunshine and Hope!

2009-11-10T23:09:00.003+08:00

Dang...8 more days! And it's already night, so count that as 7!
It's finally...one digit O_o

My feeling is like..."Oh well..."

But a few minutes later, I go "OH CRAP!!!"

And then I cool down again O_o

In other words, I can't describe my feelings properly <_<

Anyway, here are some of my favourite 'quotes' from my autograph book~!
I won't tell who wrote what though, that's for you to guess! (If you can, that is)

Also, take note that some of them may belong to the same person xD

"Mess with me and you're dead." <---(O.O)

"Anything could make one's smile is the best 'anti-depressant'"

"I STILL COULDN'T READ YOUR COMIC BOOK!" <--(Eheh, sorry-lor...)

"The first step in the acquisition of wisdom is silence....." <---(This is only a part of it, but it's good to use this phrase against someone who just annoy you and can't shut up xD)

"The world is full of stories and from time to time, they permit themselves to be told."

"Between tomorrow's dream and yesterday's regret is today's opportunity!"

"P.P.S: C.Y.N.T.H.I.A, you're a clever, creative, caring, young, hot, interesting, intelligent, active, agressive (wakakaka!!) and ambitious friend." <---(I HAD to read twice when I saw 'hot' xD Now's that's what I call unexpected!)

"What is a fren? A single soul in two bodies."

"It's better to die for something than to live for nothing" <---(emo-ness O.o)

"Precaution: Being fren is an irreversible reaction. Friends forever, t = ∞" <---(Quite obvious to know who, eh?)

"If you are a chocolate you are the sweetest, if you are a Teddy Bear you are the most huggable, if you are a star you are the brightest, and since you are my friend you are the 'BEST'!!"

"A friend is sweet when it's new...but it is sweeter when it's TRUE! But you know what? It's sweetest when it's you."

"The man of wisdom is never of two minds; The man of benevolence never worries; The man of courage is never afraid."

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow; Don't walk behind me, I may not lead; Walk beside me and just be my friend."

"Study more but not to be a nerd girl" <---(Nerd!? O_o)

"A ship in harbour is safe, but that is not what ships are for."

"If you need a friend and there are a hundred steps between us, you can take the 1st step to get near me and I will take all 99 steps to be there for you..." <---(Awww~)

"We've known each other by CHANCE, became friends by CHOICE, still friends by DECISION, and when we say FRIENDS FOREVER, that's definitely a lifetime PROMISE!" <---(How do people come up with these cool words-lah?! I'm so impressed X.X)

"With clothes the new are the best, with friends the old are the best..."

"A circle is round and has no end, that's how long I want to be your friend!!"

"Friends are like peanut butter, It sticks to the roof of your mouth, Like a friend sticks to you, And it feels as if they never go away!"

"In years to come, some day we will meet again. Then I hope to get the chance to call you 'Dr. Chee'"

"At first, you appeared as an enemy to me, After a year, you've become my close friend." <---(Enemy turned friend? lol)

"We shall soon walk our own paths...But never shall we forget those who have made our journey so far all the more memorable..." <---(Aiyah...ok-lah...this is mine =.=)

I do cherish every single entry...they are all so heartwarming...
Reading them gives me a really fuzzy feeling...and also a bit of sadness...

But then...this is part of life, no?

Thank you, friends!
Lots and lots of love to you guys... *tears welling*

Just because SPM is coming soon, there's always time for friendship!

*****Later~*****

Correction: Always~~~ and forever~~~!!!

Autograph...

2009-10-31T21:50:00.003+08:00

There isn't much time left until school ends...
Not much longer until we Form Five students become former students...

Sure, some of us may continue to be together as if by fate, but most us.....will say bye-bye.

But then, what is important is cherishing the laughter and joy that we shared.
Maybe many, many years after this...when we have all become 'asau' and 'apek' then we can laugh at each other's grey hair and wrinkles. xD

But the friendship is still good as new.

I, being the old-fashioned one, used my birthday present (autograph book) and asked some people to write in it. It's just that something written personally gives you a very.....warm and fuzzy feeling...(maybe it's just me, but I like it this way)

14 years: Tung
Tung, oh Tung xP
From arguing over a toy in nursery, to dancing in the classroom in primary school...
...and now we still laugh over small matters in secondary school xD
Fourteen years, man! Surely it can go longer than that ^^

11 years: Lim Jun Yee (a.k.a. Patrick xD)
Though we've been separated for I-don't-know-how-many-years before getting back to the same class xP. I tease him a lot, and vice versa.

10 years: Brian
The naughty kid, and I often tease him of having 'diarrhoea' (ask him for explanation). I can never imagine Brian as being emo and dull xD

10 years: Chiew Pui Syam a.k.a. Piggy-chan
One of the few who I'm not (entirely) afraid to show my drawings to xP. The hardworking Queen Guide, and I think her personality really goes well with Olivia's (don't ask me why, I don't know how to explain it).

10 years: Jason
Yep, though he used to be kinda annoying last time...but he's quite a fun guy actually. We do talk about lots of different things, and we never get bored >.<

9 years: Crystal
9 years, lots of laughter and a crap load of girl-talk xD. She's the more mature one (though she's 8-9 months younger than I am) and she's a few inches taller *envious* (it used to be the other way round in primary school O_o)... Anyway, our friendship is as clear as crystal!

9 years: Olivia
Lots and lots of hugging and talking nonsense <_<. But I truly admire her outgoing and friendly personality. Also, her handwriting will always be of that huge size xD.

5 years: Lai Kien Hiung (or as Tung and I liked to tease him last time, Chicken Breast Meat xD xD xD)
He's a cool and smart guy. (Though I sometimes have a problem reading his handwriting), we often agree on many things. We talk about the future a lot (and I mean A LOT)...and he's very updated when it comes to electronics and automobiles.

2.5 years: Lai Hsiang Juin (a.k.a. SoLai, as I often call him)
2 years plus+++ but he deserves a place in this blog (and the second one to write in the book). He calls me "Yi Min" (y'know...a type of noodles =.=) and I call him SoLai (and ask him to change 'L' to 'H'). I punch him (a lot) and he gives me thousands of funny reactions xD

2.5 years (I guess maybe 3, but oh well) : Vun Jun Kent (a.k.a. 'dei' or 'bugger', whichever suits the situation)
The super-nerd and Physics + Add. Maths genius. Sure, his 'scientific terms' are always included in his conversation, and he often mistakes 'he' with 'she' (which makes SoLai often the poor sex-changed victim). His spelling mistakes are always present, even when the word is given. But above all that, he's a helpful and very generous guy.

2 years: Yee Ming Kang (a.k.a. William Bunsen Crimson Sunny Yee Ming Kang xD)
I asked him about his plans for the future, and he told me a few things.

Case 1:
Yee: I want to be a baker. Like in Yakitate! Japan.

Case 2:
Yee: I will be in Daniel Tan's band. He plays, I sing, and we create the anime soundtracks. You draw the anime. (LOL)

2 years: Kok Chee Yung (a.k.a. Ribena)
He's often funny, but really, really hardworking and I'm his unofficial teacher~ I would always warm him that I'd punch the living daylights out of him if he were to ever give up xP

2 years: Leong Ming Chen
Kok's beloved friend and *ahem* partner. I asked him to support him and also punch him if Kok gives up xP. (Don't worry, I also warned Leong)

Sure, there are a lot more, but it's kinda late at night...(10-something is late!)
So, later~
(...but never forget)

Kiasu-ness

2009-10-30T21:20:00.002+08:00

"Come on lah, just admit it!"
"Just say it out lah!"
"It's so damn obvious lah..."

I've been getting a lot of these phrases (or similar) these days...

I'm not mad or annoyed or anything, but I personally dislike it when I am told things like that...

When I am asked about my results, if I don't say anything, they say that I'm too proud to share it with them.

...And when I answer their question, they say I am too proud until I want to boast my marks.

Come on lah =.= In that case, I can never be humble???

And what's more frustrating, is that I can't talk to others normally...even when I try.
Among the replies I get are:

"You don't need to talk to us. Your standard is too 'high' for us."
"You no need to study also can score lah!!"
"Aiyaaa...no need to study lar you!"
"So what did you do at home? Study all day long?"
"I don't want to disturb you oh...studying there all the time..."

Wei, I'm not a robot! =.=
Call me geeky if you may, but personally I think that some of my results aren't actually that good...

And some people are so kiasu when it comes to marks.
Yes, I am kiasu (I admit it) but not kiasu to the point that I become kiasi...!
SOME PEOPLE.....(correction: some KIASU people)...seem to enjoy hunting down my marks to compare...

I don't mind, go ahead =.= but at least do it HONESTLY LAH!!!
SO KIASI UNTIL YOU WANT TO LIE SO MUCH MEH?!?!

...Ooops...sudden unintended burst of fury.....

Anyway, things don't look too good now...

19 MORE DAYS!!!

I saw that on the board today, but I felt nothing.
I looked at the calendar, and it started to dawn on me.

OMG!!! I haven't started revision!!! (Ever since after exams, that is)

I've gotta do something...=.=

...Later...

Countdown...

2009-10-24T21:30:00.002+08:00

I stare at that black-red board right at the school's basketball court.

I look closely and keep staring in disbelief.
26 DAYS TO SPM?!?!
And that was YESTERDAY. TODAY, IT'S 25 DAYS.

How the heck did it come so fast?!
I mean, on the very first day of exams, there were 42 days left.
Now yesterday was my last day of school exams (because I take Arts too).

What a huge waste of time...
Sure, some argue that all these Excel and Exams can "force" us to study so that we are more prepared.
But I really do not believe that "last minute" preparations count as "preparations" at all.

Anyway...what to do...it has passed...no use wasting more time blabbering about it now...

By the way, here's a snippet that went through my mind yesterday...

***BEFORE BIO EXAMS(revising)***
Hareesh: (from across the classroom) Cynthia...!!!
Cyn: *looks at him* Yeah??
Hareesh: Help!!!
Cyn: *goes from one end of the classroom to the other* What is it?
Hareesh: *points at reference book* What the hell is this??!!
Cyn: *starts explaining*

***AFTER EXAMS a.k.a. YESTERDAY***
Hareesh: How much you got for Bio?
Cyn: 47...
Hareesh: Yes!!! First time I beat you!
Cyn: *stares* ...48?
Hareesh: *nod* *nod*
Cyn: *in awe*

I still find it amazing...O_O
How one can improve so much like that...I'm impressed! xD

Later~!

Bill's Gate's 11 points of advice to youngsters...

2009-09-26T20:54:00.004+08:00

Hello! Another post~ Wee~~~

Let's get to the point now...
I found this newspaper article (in Chinese, which I can't read...unfortunately...but good thing it has English translation!)

The article is quite old...(2006) but quality is what I want!
It's entitled...(according to my lousy Chinese to English self-translation)

Bill Gate's 11 points of advice to youngsters
Yep, Bill Gates - the richest guy on Earth and the proud owner of Microsoft.
Now...why would it be on a CHINESE newspaper...? I don't know xD

1. Life is not fair, get used to it.
A hit below the belt to those who think that life is merely for enjoying. Yeah, you need to enjoy life, but you have to know the right way to do so.

2. The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about yourself.
In other words, don't just sit there and wait for fortune to come flying towards you! You won't be considered "quality" unless you prove it.

3. You will not make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice president with a car phone, until you earn both.
Yep...don't dream too much. You have to walk the talk.

4. If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn't have tenure.
Don't think what you're suffering now is...well...suffering...at least until you grow up and face life for real.

5. Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping, they called it opportunity.
In other words, don't look down on things that may seem petty...you'll never know what it brings!

6. If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about our mistakes, learn from them.
Look at yourself in the mirror, then start to whine...and think of how to prevent that in the future.

7. Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bill, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parents' generation, try 'delousing' the closet in your own room.
I like this one xP...and how we're called 'parasites'. xD

8. Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they'll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to anything in real life.
If you think that you can just simply fail something and try again (like in school), think again. Reality doesn't give you a chance to rise above unless you can actually correct your mistakes and let go of that "Oh, I'll fail...but it's not like I can't try again" attitude.

9. Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.
Basically, you need to be prepared to face life...even in situations out of your own comfort zone.

10. Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.
Don't just wish to enjoy ALL the time-get up and do soem work!

11. Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.
Hah! Take that to all those who tease me of being a "nerd"!!!

Well, that's it...
Never thought typing could be so tiring...
I understand now, newpaper editors....X.X

Later~!

Boundaries

2009-09-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

Finally, an update!

Well, it's not like there's really anything interesting to blog about...
(Why else do you think I'm so lazy to update this?)

Anyway, since there's not much of a topic here, let's BLAH!

First of all, there have been numerous people trying to test my patience recently.

I mean, I've been holding it in, thinking to myself that the &*(#$%&^ doesn't deserve my concern or attention...but yesterday...

Yesterday, I nearly blew.
I was on the verge of spouting vulgar trash at the #$&^*@#, but my conscience stopped me just in time.
Hey, I'm not against freedom of expression, but there are certain boundaries that I've set for myself to keep behind.

I ain't gonna go across that boundary I've so carefully set just for one useless person.
Why would I break my own record (in a bad way) just because of someone who's so insignificant in my life?
In fact, there's no way I'll let anyone at all drag me past the border.

So, sure it took me a few aching minutes to cool down, but at the end, telling myself that I did what was most probably right...
Mentally, I gave myself a pat on the back, telling myself "Good job".
I felt like kicking myself for even wanting to punch that person to high heaven and low hell, but then What the heck! It's the success at controlling myself that matters.

Besides, ever since a child, I was taught not to humiliate others, be it directly or not.
Yeah, I DO talk about their weaknesses, but I try to only say what is true.
Humiliation would be spouting unnecessary crap about someone, which I have experienced quite frequently.

And yeah, it happened yeaterday too.
I won't blab out the #$*(%&#('s name, because that person doesn't deserve to have any place in this blog, nor any place in my life, or any place in SOCIETY.

Whatever these kinds of people (who have nothing else to do but scar the honour of others) plan to do with their flaws, I couldn't care less.
I'll just play my part and keep myself behind that boundary.

If you want to mess with me, go ahead. You won't get anything in return.
But I can tell you this: you have no rights or any existence in my life.

Ta-ta~

On-The-Spot?!

2009-08-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

I've realized how long it has been since my last update...
But I really have nothing much to type...
I guess I do now, but I can't guarantee it to be interesting...

It's already August!
How time flies, huh?

On Friday, when I woke up from my "nap", my mom waved an envelope in front of me...

I looked at it in a daze, and though it looked blur at the moment, I could see my full name printed on it.

I opened it carefully...What a thick envelope...
And guess what?

A letter from The One Academy!

It congratulates me, telling me that I'm chosen to participate in the On-The-Spot
competition at Bandar Sunway late August...

Holy crap! On The Spot?!?!
Bandar Sunway!?!?

My first thought wasn't OMG I'M CHOSEN!!!
but instead, OMG is it safe to go there???

Oh well...O_o

Later...

Mid-term holidays...?

2009-06-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Bleh...
Current mood: <_<

Finally...another chance to update this dusty blog...

Well, what do I say? The mid-term holidays are almost over...

And what did I do for the past two week?

Play, Sleep, Draw.

Not only that, of course...

I went to practice the drama for BM oral test several times...
so far still not completed...

AND

I spent day and night, day and night...
Doing the #$&^ing Seni project...

I have to admit it:
1) I am not a crafts-lover --- in fact, I really dislike it.
2) I HATE the smell of UHU glue...or whatever glue that has that GLUE smell...
3) I am annoyed by cleaning jobs and also peeling off the "skin" on my fingers when glue is dried...

But every single day...for the past two weeks...
I've been doing crafts and crafts and crafts...
I've been inhaling LOTS and LOTS of UHU glue...and I doubt that it'll be over anytime soon...
I've been sweeping and vacuuming the floor, peeling that "skin" off again and again...
Cardboard, polystryrene, nylon, coloured paper, coloured cloth, acrylic paint, YOU NAME IT.

The BAD thing is:
I don't know what this UHU chemical stuff can do to our bodies...but I know it ain't good... It's just as bad as inhaling petrol: just found out today-the hard way.
I don't know how much damn longer do I need to take to finish this...
I don't think I can ever sit down peacefully and continue my drawing...sigh...
I lost count of how much $$$ I used for this project <_<>

The GOOD thing, though is:
I THINK I'm getting a bit better at crafts...I guess...

Lessons learned:
1) Keep your finger at a safe distance when using a pen knife!
2) Scissors to cut cloth shouldn't be used to cut paper and vice versa.
3) UHU glue MELTS (that's the only way I can describe it) polystyrene...found out the hard way... they react chemically, so double tape would be a better choice...T_T

Oh well...tomorrow I gotta continue...again...

Later...

Am I Lonely?

2009-05-22T03:12:00.001+08:00

Am I lonely?

Maybe I am?
Maybe I'm not...?

...but I guess I am after all...

...since a long time ago...

...even now.

Exams Over...well...almost...

2009-05-12T19:34:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: ...

Well, well...exams are finally over...ALMOST finally over...
I still have a Seni paper to sit for tomorrow...great...3 more hours =.=

Today, there was supposed to be EST classes after school,
and I was supposed to be the loner staying back...

But when I heard that NOBODY in my class was staying (except me and possibly Lai)
I immediately had second thoughts...

The whole class was asking me not to stay...
"Don't stay laaaa...." "Neeerrrdddd" and so on =.=

I finally thought, what's the point if I'm the only one in class =.=
so I said "Fine, I won't stay back, but tomorrow we'll all go face the music"

The whole class erupted in cheers and you know what?

EST class was eventually cancelled anyway xP

Later...

Just a Random Filler

2009-04-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

Current condition: @_@
Current mood: ...

Man...I really have nothing to type here...
I guess it's because...well...there's nothing to type here...O_O

What can I say? A few more pages and I reach Book 26?

Or the fact that I nearly had my wits challenged by some heartless and hopeless %&#*(%^#($&*(&Q#(%&#($&#*($%#*%&#$*(%&#*()% s?

Or maybe it's just that I've been such a quiet freak lately because of some who are so
#*(%&#$(%*@#^($@&@!)$%)#)(#$@%&*%&*@#$(!&*(!#%*&*()^&@???

Who knows...
Tomorrow's Labour Day...

...But it has nothing to do with me...

...Later.

My Very Own Mini Experiment

2009-04-12T11:28:00.005+08:00

I've decided to fool around a bit...by questioning people!

Well, they're mostly my classmates, but still...

Anyway, in the first experiment, I went around the class like a fool showing them pictures and getting their opinions.

FIRST PICTURE: Two guys, one smiling but with messed up clothing (like those samseng type)
and the other one neat but not smiling.

SECOND PICTURE: Two girls, also one smiling but messed up and the other one is the opposite.

RESULTS:
Out of 30 people asked,

19 chose the guy with the smile
MAIN REASONS:
1. Apparently, they like messed up clothing rather than the school's strict rules of neat clothing <_<>
2. They like the fact that he's smiling and looks carefree.

11 chose the other guy
MAIN REASONS:
1. He looked pretty cool, like some VIP from an organisation or something...
2. He looks like a disciplined and pretty nice guy, compared to the other who looks more like a problematic student.
**Take note that about 2-3 couldn't decide, but I made them choose anyway xD

For the girls,
23 chose the smiling but messy girl
MAIN REASONS:
1. She's pretty *swt*
2. Again, they prefer the smile and the messy clothing.

7 chose the nice girl
MAIN REASONS:
1. Again, she's pretty (double swt)
2. She has longer hair...
3. They prefer neat clothing.

CONCLUSION:
Most people judged them merely based on their expressions, as I noticed.
I asked them and most of them said because he/she is smiling...
So in my opinion, they don't really care much on other stuff than your expressions...
BUT OF COURSE, that doesn't always apply in real life.

It's better to have a good impression, and SMILING is a large step to achieving that.

I might do another mini experiment, depends...
Later~!

Turning Seventeen...

2009-03-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Current music: LIA - Filiation (Original Mix)
Current condition: Tired...but I'm stayin' awake till the clock ticks twelve...
Current mood: ...It's all mixed up...

I know...I've finally decided to change my blog layout...
Sure, many others use this layout, but I suppose simplicity is the way to go, eh?
At least it's not as blue as before...
Anyway...

As I'm typing this, I'm thinking to myself...

OH MY GOODNESS! I'm going to be a year older in fifteen minutes!!!

But what can I do? I can't change time...it never comes back.
I just have to go with it and live with it.

Thinking back, sweet sixteen wasn't all that sweet for me...
...Sure, there were some golden moments, but of course, like everybody, there are also some bitter moments...

I wonder what sweet seventeen has in store for me...?

Dear sixteen, I enjoyed your year...
Now I shall welcome seventeen...so we can start another fresh year...
But sixteen, you will never be forgotten (neither will any other year). The memories of you will always be treasured and cherished in my soul.

There is about ten minutes left...
I should spend my remaining "sixteen" time by myself...so I'm gonna end this post here...

Love you, sixteen. Forever and always.

Seventeen, you are welcomed with open hands.

*closes eyes in silence*

Prefects' Camp 2009

2009-03-29T19:42:00.002+08:00

Current music: Lia - Filiation (Original Mix)
Current condition: Wah...I haven't been in such bad shape since quite a while...
Current mood: Still alright...tired, but alright...

Finally, it's over!!
Prefects' Camp was a blast when we included so many new activities, despite the sudden change in schedule, and of course, who could forget our new weapon - flour?

After holding exhaustion and pain back for three days and two nights, sleeping it back is really gonna be a task...but it is definitely worth it.

I guess it's hard for me to make this post longer than it is, but I guess I'll make a more complete one if I feel like it later...

Anyway, we hoped that every prefect enjoyed the camp, despite certain injuries they may have gotten...
And we really really hope that the teachers would be more considerate =.= , not to put any important tests the day right after camp...

Oh well, Later!

Countdown: 2 more days?! Aaaahhh....!

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Tired...it's a Tuesday, so what to expect?
Current mood: Normal

I was watching Discovery Channel, and then they had this very interesting commercial about Earth Hour 2009.
Hey, I've watched this long time ago...since the hoildays...I just felt like blogging about it now.

Anyway, it's the hour when about 80 countries all over the worlds switch off their lights from 8:30 to 9:30 p.m., 28th March 2009.

Well, during that time the prefects will be in Prefects' Camp, so probably we'll have a nice prayer about saving Earth or something? Wakaka xP

Hmm...wouldn't sound too bad if you ask me...I mean, it IS about time we all at least contribute to the environment.
I mean, just imagine it. Just switching off your lights for one hour, multiplied by the number of people willing to do so, multiplied again by the number of countries involved...
That much energy is a lot!

And it's definitely meant to unite the world.

Therefore, plan on, folks!
Plan a romantic/social dinner with candle lights or something...

As a side thing (changing the topic)
Here are snippets from conversations from today at school xD:

Belinda: Why are you so quiet these two days?
Cyn: Don't know...busy.
Belinda: Usually you would bully me or something...
Cyn: Because now you're low priority, so I have other things to layan.
Belinda: *pretends* So baaaddd...
Cyn: It's not bad. It's being direct. x)
**************************************************
Tung: One more week and it's someone's birthday...
Cyn: Har? Whose oh? Whose oh?
Tung: Ahah...pretend pretend tak tahu there...
Cyn: Hmm? Who ah?
Tung: Yealor...who ah? I don't know...

Guess that's it...later!!!
Countdown: 7 days...

We All Need Love

2009-03-21T19:03:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: ...

Unbelievable...(for me anyway), another post the day after one.

Anyway...I just felt like blogging about it, so here...

Today, I went to the hospital.
Not because I'm sick or anything <_<...i>

I know I can't expect patients to look really super duper well, but then...

I've never seen her in such condition before...
I remember ever so vividly when she used to yell at me and all that stuff...
But now...

We may not be the best and closest of the closest, but still...seeing a precious relative like this...

As I look around the somewhat gloomy area, some looked slightly more decent...some not so.

Then I thought to myself...

"If this is how Sandakan is like, then what about Gaza?"

And what hurts more is that some of the patients were all alone...barely anybody visiting them, even though it was visiting hours (believe me, I've been observing for the whole time until visiting hours ended)

Honestly, standing and looking around a place like that for three ++ full hours wasn't exactly the best experience, but I can only try to imagine how it's like lying on the hospital bed for days...and the people you meet start talking about your diseases and the effects it has on your body...

Come on...where did all the "You'll be okay...Don't worry" s go???

I have never experienced being admitted into the hospital before, but it doesn't take something like that for us to know that these patients need love, care and support...!

When visiting time was almost over, we decided to leave. I waved to my relative, and a mother taking care of the child with whom I've became fast friends with.
I looked at the other patients, and they looked back at me.
Somehow, I decided to wave at them, and surprisingly, a smile lit up on their faces and they waved back.

Man...the sight was so surprising, it was almost painful...
I do hope for them to get better and to get all the love they deserve...

Later...

March Holidays...

2009-03-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

Current condition: A bit sick due to the weather, but still alright I suppose

Current mood: Normal

Wow...it's finally Friday...near the end of the much-needed holidays.

And it's been almost two weeks since I've last updated, so here ya go.

So what have I done during the holidays?

I've struggled with my homework, asking my pals here and there...

I've sat in front of the PlayStation (yes, the first and the lousiest one---and it's not even mine), playing battle and strategy games (in other words, games that girls don't normally play <_<)

I've watched the television...(Entertainment shows, Discovery Channel, Oprah Show...yeah you get the idea)

but most importantly...

I actually took the time to reflect on myself.

Don't start rolling your eyes now, coz you have no idea how many people actually don't take the time to do it.

Frankly, I can tell you that the first three months of the year was a mixture of haven and crap.

But then again, I ain't gonna be sixteen forever. Heck, I only have one week ++ before another digit is added to my age...

The thing is, you definitely can't expect everyday to be a bed of roses.

Sure, there are tough times and all, but why let them stop you from going with the flow?

Correction: Not going with the flow, it's create the flow.

With the recent events (the scandals happening and all that stuff...I'm sure you know what I'm talking about by now)...I don't have any rights to judge whoever that is, therefore I won't comment on that, but just let me say this, especially to you guys who keep telling me that you're going crazy, this, that, this, that...:

You know you're going the wrong way.

Turn back!

Come on! Nobody is stupid enough not to notice anything wrong.

The real question isn't "Am I doing the right thing?"

It's actually "Am I doing anything at all?"

Knowing that you're going the wrong way isn't doing anything.

Taking the initiative to change yourself is something.

If you can't tell the difference between these two, then you need to sit down and think about it.

Also, I'm not only referring to "those" cases. Many people, (almost all, in fact) have this kind of problem.

Alright, enough with that. I'm not a psychologist or anything, but I'm merely stating what I believe is true.

Back to school in three days, mate!

Later~!

So Many Things, So Little Time

2009-03-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

Current music: Alice DeeJay - Who Needs Guitars Anyway
Current condition: ----
Current mood: ----

As the title of this post suggests, so many things, so little time...!
I'm just giving a short post here, cuz life's been busy, busy, busy!

A "simplified" version of whatever happened recently...

1) Pelantikan Pengawas (late February) Man, I won't forget how I had to stand for I-don't-know-how-long while the rain dripped on my face, waiting for the speech to finish =.=

2) Website tutorial (late February) It was okay...(considering Jaja wasn't able to attend...) I guess it went smoothly...

3) Language Week (early March) It was a lot of preparation...and $%^& whoever said the backdrop didn't look nice. Let me see you do better in two hours!

4) Test...tests...TESTS!!!!!
HOLY CRAP!? I GOT A C IN CHEMISTRY!?!?!? =.=

5) PROJECTS PROJECTS PROJECTS!!!!
ICT, SENI, MORAL, SIVIK, WALALALALALALA

Okay, that just about sums it up...
Later...

Giving Up or Getting Up?

2009-02-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

Current music: Cube::Hard - Micro N2
Current game: Audiosurf

You know, I often question many things in life, such as determination, courage, faith and even life itself.
Hey, call me emo if you will, but curiosity never really killed the cat.

Anyways, I've encountered many, many people with their own set of problems.
Sure, we all do have little demons of our own, but not many are actually willing to share them.

The other day, a junior told me about her fear of failure (in general).
Well, we all are, to a certain extent...but this is where the "Dare to Fail" phrase kicks in.
Of course, failure isn't fatal - it's merely delayed success...depending on what happens after the failure itself.

What I mean here is that we all have choices...whether to give up or get up.
Some people give up way too easily - they simply aren't confident of their potential, or are unsure of the risks.
Well, let me state this: The greater risk is not taking the risk.

Someone who just failed would be understandably sad and disappointed, especially after having worked so damn hard for that little moment.

But once you've banged your head on the wall enough, you'll stare at the dented wall and start thinking...What am I doing? Man, I'm being stupid.

...and that's where the getting up phase comes in.

Get up, dust the dirt off your shirt and go on.
You won't know where you'll be in the future, but hey, there's no rule that says you can't enjoy your walk meanwhile.

Life is short, man. You've gotta live before you die, or you die before you live. Simple as that.

By the way, the song I listen to ironically fits <_<

Guess that's it...so it's really up to you to either give up or get up.
Your choice is in your hands.

Later~

A Special Valentine's

2009-02-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

Current music: Rihanna - Umbrella
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: :)

Today's Valentine's Day...!

That's right, folks! The time when florists laugh at their huge wallets (even during an economy crisis)
A season when the thought counts.

A special day to me, not because it's Valentine's (believe me, I don't even celebrate it)

...but it's because it's the birthday of someone special.

If today never existed, that person wouldn't be here.
...and I wouldn't be here.

One of the people who has been through so much with me for so long.
Sure, there have been some complicated moments, but then...
Blood is thicker than water.

So, I'll dedicate this post to you (although I don't think you'll read it O_o)

Happy Birthday, Daddy!

Rollercoaster of Emotions

2009-02-11T19:21:00.002+08:00

Current music: Cube::Hard - Micro N2
Current condition: Still a bit sick, but I can walk around at least...
Current mood: *blank*

Since the beginning of the year, I've been experiencing so many emotions...

Sure, those feelings were already present a long time ago, but this year, they seem to be amplified... much stronger and apparent.

No, we don't have carte blanche over our emotions...sometimes they're nearly impossible to control (of course, that depends on how resilient you are, but still there's always a limit somewhere)

One day in school, (I won't say when *sticks out tongue*) I went from crying alone in the corridor of the school to forcing myself to stop, breathe and go back to laughing with the teachers as I walk by in 5 minutes. Not only that, various other emotions come into place, some that I can't even describe in words.
It was tough, and one minute you're thinking of something in your life, the next minute you notice your eyes going red...a few seconds later, you either force them back or rush somewhere vacant and let go.

Call me a softie if you want, but I stand by the fact that we all face problems of our own, some we would rather not share with others...while others have more than enough trust to confide in their close ones.
What's worse is when you feel like you want to say it out, but something holds you back---fear.

Yes, fear. The fear of what would come to happen if your sacred secret comes out.
For some, it would be the fear of being laughed at or ignored.
And some, they probably just think it's not their business.
And for others, it's the fear of being a considered a faux pas.

Yesterday, I was told that I am useless.
Today, I was told that I am emo. (Believe me, my expression was like "What the-?!")

So what am I going to be told tomorrow???

Ah, but c'est la vie, life ain't a bed of roses. Roses don't come without the thorns.
I'm definitely not the center of attention, but at least there are a few loyal ones who stick by my side... and at least I have my rhyme and reason.

So what the heck...now that I think about it, I haven't really thought about my resolutions...(you know, the stuff that most people just crap about but they mostly never come true)...
But alas, I'll still try my best, because when I said mostly, it doesn't mean all.

I wonder what's in store for me tomorrow?

Clarification

2009-02-08T09:10:00.002+08:00

You know, sometimes (more like most of the time) I feel like I'm alone...

And I can say this very frankly:

My school life sucks.

I mean, it's hard to find someone you can talk to and share things with...not only because we have very different interests...but also that we're just plain different.
Sometimes I even wonder if some of my so-called friends are really friends.

Some of them, I can say, are parasites...being nice to me only because I seem to be good at something. Parasites, I say!

And what the heck is with those people who keep insulting me?!
Seriously, I don't give a damn what you say, but don't go around spreading crap about me that'll humiliate me!
Even some of the teachers know some rumours and bug me about them...!

Crap lah, you guys seriously need a reality check.

ONE, okay, just because it's true (I admit it) you don't have to tease me about my weight! It's not like every single person in this world is skinny! And at least I'm doing something about it, so don't make the the butt of your insults, you fools.

TWO, just because I speak with certain boys (plural!) it DOESN'T MEAN THAT WE'RE DATING OR ANYTHING!!!
What do you think I am, a TRAMP?!
I've clearly said that I won't think about romance at this age, dammit!
And what's up with the teasing about me being nice to some people?!
Just because you guys hate those people, it doesn't mean they deserve to be hated.
I know exactly how it feels to be treated like crap, so I try to treat others as I would want to be treated, which is certainly not the policy in this crappy world.

Like I said, say what you want, but don't humiliate me. I have my own pride too as a person.

THREE, don't go assuming that all I do is STUDY STUDY STUDY. You know, some people just suddenly come up to me and say "So what did you do, study?" "You study all night long ah?"
"I'm sure during holidays all you do is study lah..."

Come on lah! Don't start a conversation with me just to ask something like that! It's as if you're not treating me like a person, but like a robot or some sort... and also, like I said before, don't use me, you parasites!

Let me clarify this:
I am NOT a walking encyclopedia, nor am I a robot. I am merely a person, just like you guys. With flesh and blood, emotions and a certain limit to what can be handled.
Don't push me over the limit. I want to be treated equally. I want to enjoy whatever school like I have left. I want to stay clean (as in no bad records or anything).

If you guys are expecting me to shout out the F-word or something, nice try, but no way. I won't ever do that so save your efforts.

Wow...it's amazing how much you can spurt out when you're sick... (literally)
I'm glad I let that out...I won't state who I am referring this to...you know yourselves.

Reformat!?!?

2009-02-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

What the HECK!?!?
My computer is TOTALLY BUSTED...!
(actually this happened few days ago...it's still not back yet...

The thing I really did not want had to be done--REFORMAT

What a waste of precious holiday time...and now they're over.
So no computer-related activities until I-don't-know-when.

By the way, this post is typed from my iPod.
Convenient, but mind-sickeningly slow <_<

I guess that's it for now. Too much going on at once to actually sit down
and type...

Too bad my first iPod-typed post had to be this one...

Oh well...
Later...

Solitary Chinese New Year

2009-01-28T13:38:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Dazed
Current mood: Normal

Okay, I know it's kinda late, but I've been spending the past few days in KK so I couldn't update this. Just came back yesterday extremely tired, so that explains why I'm typing this so late <_<

Anyway, Happy Chinese NIU Year to all...!

Hope you guys get lots of angpau-s and be happy with you family and friends!

For me, on the other hand...
Just as I came back eysterday and tried to go online, my computer busted =.=

That's right, BUSTED!!! (I'm using my bro's comp) What perfect timing to be BUSTED!
And you know that computer shops take few days of holidays due to Chinese New Year, WHAT GREAT TIMING INDEED...

And the second thing is that...I don't know why, but this year's CNY doesn't seem to be... up to the standards of the previous years...
No, I'm not talking about the decorations, the parties and all that, I'm talking about...myself...

Somehow, even though it is CNY, I do feel happy, but there's just...something missing...

It feels like a solitary New Year to me...
Solitary...

Oh well, just enjoy your CNYs...

Guess that's it for now...will blog later.

Later~!

220109

2009-01-22T21:44:00.003+08:00

Current condition: Exhausted
Current mood: Ok-ok-lah

Phew...! It's finally the end of Excels...(at least until after Chinese New Year holidays <_<)

Anyway, it's a good break that I (and the other students) desperately need.
No, it's nowhere close to being the most hectic time of the year, but it's already taking its toll, so relaxation is a must.

To be frank, excels were cr@p. I mean, the purpose of it is already cr@ppy enough, but the questions that came out simple reinforced my opinion of it.

Well, no comment-lah...put that aside for now.

Today, after school we had a meeting involving all the prefect committees...
Cason told me about ripping Elliot's Pierre Cardin undies which I find amusing xD
Dang, twelve bucks just for that rip xD

The canteen woman let the cat out of the bag when she told Tung about the *ahem* cake we bought for him. D@mmit...why'd you have to be so mulut tempayan?!
Well...the cake was delicious though. It was mango cake but from afar it looked like mango pudding O_o

After that, we had our second official prefects' committee meeting...talking about, well, what we were supposed to talk about.
At around 3++, we went to the KFC in Giant via mini bus!
At 80 cents per person, it's fair-lah...but the bass in the bus' speakers are so damn loud, I can't believe the driver can still hear perfectly well while driving with such loud music everyday...
Although it seemed quite fun, but in a way I didn't like how fast the driver was actually going... it felt like a roller coaster in there!

Enough with the bus, when we reached KFC, we started ordering and ordering and ordering...
Imagine this:
9-pcs chicken family plate x2
15-pcs chicken family plate x1
Zinger tower burger x7
Cheesy wedges x5
French fries (I forgot how many...around 5??)
Mashed potatoes (super big cup) x2
Coleslaw (super big cup also) x2

All for 12 people xP

Yep, that's still considered a lot...but Tung spent us all xP thanks man~

Anyways, we went walking around Giant after that and some of us waited for transport.

By the time I got home it was nearly 6... 12 hours outside O_o... in my school uniform O_o o_O...

It was definitely exhausting, but satisfying xP

Hey, it's not everyday that I get to hang out with my friends outside of school, ya know...

Later~!

January...

2009-01-16T18:23:00.002+08:00

Current music: JAKAZiD - Can't Hold Back
Current game: Parasite Eve (EX Mode xP)
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: *blank*

So that's it. Finally in Form 5...going to 5E where the tables are surprisingly larger than the old tables. From my class, going to the toilet is a pain - the school should build toilets on that block...

But that's just one thing... Form 5 is similar yet different to Form 4.
It's hard to explain, but it's just....different, I tell you.

When the teachers said to the class that there will be some UJIAN EXCEL on January 19, I kept silent, but deep inside I was like "What?! Excels on the very first month of school?!"

And I still think it's absurd. 30% (20% for some subjects...depends on the teacher) of the marks from this so-called excel test is gonna be added to our semester average?! The percentage is really flabbergasting.

Anyway, enough with that...there's nothing I can do about it anyway.
Things were fine the first week or so, but now it's really starting down the road!
Ahh...just like old times, eh?

'Guess that's it. Don't wanna make too long a post. Guess we'll just see and endure what's in store for us for the whole juicy 2009...

Later~!

Coming to the New Year 2009

2008-12-30T14:47:00.002+08:00

Current music: Darren Styles - Getting Better
Current condition: My whole body's in pain X.X ...I guess I pushed myself too hard in the gym recently...
Current mood: .....

Man...holidays are coming to an end...something I'm obviously not very happy about...

Anyways...I didn't do much during the holidays...
but when I've finally found something good to do, I go "Great, it's already the end of the holidays..."

2 movies in a week! That must be some kind of record (for me anyways)

I watched The Day the Earth Stood Still and Australia.
Surprisingly, there were barely any people at all on those two days, so it's great having the theatre to yourself ;)

Well, it's almost the end of 2008...how time sure passes so quickly...

I'm getting OLD T.T

Okay, now to cut the crap and get to the point:

For the year 2009:
1) I've gotta take thing easy. Yeah, I know about that "big thing" with the initials SPM, but hey...stress is no go.
2) I will reduce (or at least control) the activities I'm gonna take part in (as in school stuff). Coz I don't wanna be clogged up and stuff; nobody wants to fall into depression.
3) I've gotta take care of my health. Not that I'm terribly sick or anything, but hey... start when you're young!
4) I'm gonna continue listening to the music I listen to xD
I mean, who cares if some people say "It's not music!" ?! I like it, and I will listen to it.
5) I'm gonna try my best to stay out of fights... Of course, I will defend myself if something happens, but no fights...NO FIGHTS... (both physically and verbally)

Sad that I didn't get to go anywhere (except around Sandakan) this holidays... but oh well...

Better luck next holidays, hopefully...

Happy New Year, everyone!

Merry Christmas 2008!

2008-12-26T21:18:00.002+08:00

A Merry Merry Christmas to all!

I know I haven't updated in quite a while, but somehow...
I just didn't feel like it.

So obviously this is going to be a short post.

Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

2009 awaits~!

Aural Bliss

2008-12-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

Current mood: Cloud Nine~
Current condition: Normal...except for that painful bruise on my arm...

Recently, I've been exploring other music genres...
Well, it's not that I've never listened to songs of other genres before...

But you know, it's kind of an in-depth exploration...

And you know what?

Jazz + Techno = Jazzy Trippy Bliss

Rock + Piano = Subtle Catchy Bliss

Guitar + Drums (y'know, those salsa type of drums) = Exotic Latin Bliss

Synthesizer + Almost anything = (Depends on the music) Bliss

It's amazing how other genres that seems so "opposite" can blend well with each other...

It's aural bliss, man! My eardrums are laughing with joy xD

Later~

P.S: School holidays are almost over?!?! Noooooooooooo~~~!!!!!!

December, December, December...

2008-12-08T18:23:00.003+08:00

Current music: Night Ranger - (You Can Still) Rock in America
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: Normal

It's been quite a while since my last update...so I'll just type something...

Yesterday, I went to...
the church! (with my bro)

For the first time in...what, ten years...?

Anyway, I didn't know what to expect...
But with all the carol singing and fun stuff...it was...fun!

I love Christmas songs soooo much xD

Anyway, my English is starting to get weird O_o
I don't know why...
But probably it's because of someone from the south <_<

Blimey! My manglish -lahs and -kahs are almost completely gone =.=
Should I apply them back into my conversation?

Maybe not...it'll sound weird...

Christmas is just around the corner...yayy~~~ Gonna wear my Santa hat soon xD

Later~

Disturbed

2008-11-30T18:29:00.003+08:00

Current manga: Nijigahara Holograph
Current condition: A bit weary
Current mood: Disturbed

I finished Book 20...two days ago...=.=

That's it...I'm rushing too much <_< I'll take the next book easily... (at least try to, that is)

But that's not the only thing...

I've realised...

That next year, I would have to make quite a number of controversial and risky decisions...

...Whatever the risk, I still have to.

Wanted to make this post longer, but don't feel like it.

Later...

Inner conflicts...

2008-11-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: ...confused...

Even the holidays prevent me from being stress-free =.=

The "holidays" that I expected turns out to be, well, unexpected...

What-lah =.= why can't they just let me enjoy my holidays =.=

All these demons named Conflict, Stress and Despair won't leave me alone, no matter how much garlic I hang around or how many crosses I take with me =.=

I cannot say out specifically about this problem I'm facing...it's personal business...

Next update probably won't be so soon...
Until I feel like it, at least <_<

Later...

What fish?!

2008-11-21T18:38:00.001+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: O_o...

Sometimes I just confuse myself =.=

*earlier today*...
Cyn: Mom, what are we having for dinner?
Mom: Vegetables...tofu...sa-deng fish (We were speaking in Mandarin, so sa-deng sounded blurry)
Cyn: O_o....what fish?
Mom: Sa-deng fish.
Cyn: ...Satan fish?!
Mom: Sardine fish! =.=

...Weird...

Book Twenty!

2008-11-19T01:13:00.002+08:00

Current music: Metal Gear Solid 2 Theme (<_<>
Current condition: Tired...
Current mood: Tired...

...Finally...

I've finished Book 19!!!

And now I'm moving on to Book 20~!

I broke my previous record of finishing one book in 13 days...
I finished book 19 in 11 days...!

Okay, that's crazy...I admit it... but I'm just so...into it that I can't stop!

Also, I've finally found the mechanical pencil I've been looking for~ T.T

The Pilot RexGrip 0.5!!!
I know for a fact that Pilot brand pencils are damn expensive =.=
For example, the famous Shaker pencil is absurdly priced at RM 7-8...
And some other pencils can go up to RM 20++

But not for RexGrip! I think it's one of the cheapest Pilot pencils, sold at around RM 4, more or less...

Besides, I bought a new pack of exercise books...(and you should know by now what they're for...)
and they are CAMPAP branded~ which means higher paper quality...and higher price...

Moving on to another topic, my muscle cramps haven't completely healed =.=

Regardless, though, I've been dragged against my will to the gym...
Honestly-lah...it hurts like $%*&$%#...but I guess it's because I'm not used to it yet...

And at the Golf Club gym, there's this large-sized man with a very strict face...
(I've been told that he's a committee member of Golf Club)

Well, fine...but I've been nagged by him many times before =.=
Either it's because he thinks I wasn't holding the handles properly... or wasn't careful when doing this, doing that...

...Better not go into too much detail... I'll be in boiling soup if he happens to stumble upon this blog...and read this post...ACKK!!!

That's it for now...
Book 20~!!!

Later~!

Health Maintenance

2008-11-15T19:59:00.003+08:00

Current music: Onoken - Vijore
Current condition: ...Better but worse at the same time
Current mood: Normal

It's already mid-November...
I've decided...I wasn't gonna stick my bottom to the chair and face the computer (and my drawing book) all day...

So what did I do?
I changed my clothes, wore shoes and followed my mom all the way to...

...The Sandakan Golf Club Gymnasium!!!

I mean...some health maintenance wouldn't hurt, right?
The moment I got there (this was three days ago) I saw Deepika, Elliot and Elliot Junior xD

Elliot: Wah, Cynthia...bored of studying already ah?
Cyn: *swt* LOL

Oy, come on-lah...I wasn't studying...the only book I've been touching since the holidays started is my drawing book~

Anyway, there was a new "gadget" or gym equipment...
In the book that members have to write their names on before using the equipment, the gadget is called "Synchro", but all I hear the people in charge of the gym call it is "...yang baru itu" =.="

After Deepika, I tried on that "yang baru itu" and it was actually quite fun xP. After gym, I noticed Deepika and Elliot going off to swim...with Wesley, Hareesh and Harikesh O_o... so many people that I know there...

Today, (more like just now) was my third day (in the holidays) going to the gym...
I treadmill-ed, cycled, synchro-ed...

And now that I think about it...I did some terrible mistakes on the first day...
1) I forgot to wear socks in my shoes =.= *ewww*
2) I forgot to warm up...

...and yes, even now I'm still having muscle aches =.=
Half-way through cycling today I experienced a mild cramp in my left leg...but it healed in nearly 10 seconds <_<

Even going up the stairs is a pain now...T.T ...that's why...WARM UP NEXT TIME!!!

Oh well...on my next visit to the gym (tomorrow T.T)
I might even go swimming!

...and yes, I can swim perfectly fine, excuse me <_<
...and no, I don't need a float to...well...float!

Guess that's it for now...

Later~!

School holidays...

2008-11-12T13:47:00.004+08:00

Current music: Lia - Question of Honour
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: Normal

Malas update blog...but since it's been three days, might as well just type something here...
Since the holidays started, guess what I've been doing?

...Drawing...and
...Drawing...and
...Drawing...and
...Drawing...and

DRAWING!!!

I've been drawing so much that I could probably vomit pencil leads =.=

But hey, at least I'm not forcing myself or anything...I enjoy it~
My goal: Finishing Book 20 by the end of the year...

Since I'm now at book 19, I have approximately 1 1/2 months to do it...

Many of my friends asked me...Where am I gonna go for the holidays?
I don't know...probably nowhere...but probably somewhere...dunno...

Yalah...I know I'm "Ms. Dull and Boring" because I don't really go out and yum cha with my friends or go liao somewhere like the movies or (insert super exciting place here)

Dunno why-lah...
Maybe it's because...
1) I'm too lazy to go out xD
2) Nobody invites me...T.T
3) My friends are all out on vacation...

Speaking of hanging out...
I went to the class party on Monday night...
The BBQ was nice~ especially the mutton.

Then, some of my friends started playing "cho dai di"
I like that game T.T and wanted to join in, but they were betting money...so it's a no for me...
For me: Money involved = No go
Reasons:
1) I'm always broke
2) My chances of winning are like trying to win a lottery xO
3) It is against my policy xD

I guess that's it for now...What a boring post, huh?

Later...

KIV-ing Mobile Phones

2008-11-09T18:44:00.003+08:00

Current condition: Ughhh... not too well...
Current mood: Normal, but...maybe slightly disappointed.

Today, I went to check out some new mobile phones...

I've been KIV-ing a few mobile phones...because I thought they were so cool and stuff...
Then I saw one of them.

Sony Ericsson W960i... RM 1,899

My heart probably skipped a beat...maybe two.

WHAT THE ----?!?!
That's absurd! Two years of my savings would barely even reach that much!
And the ridiculously expensive phone is already at its nett price, so no point of trying to bargain.

*sigh*...I guess that'll be a no...
And I'm sure the other phones I've been KIV-ing won't be even close to average in price...
...I wonder what other phones are great...but not too expensive and overpriced...

Later...

Speech Day and Prize Giving Ceremony 2008~!

2008-11-07T12:22:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Sticky and sweaty xD
Current mood: :)

Speech Day 2008 just finished almost an hour ago!
After hours of sweating while wearing a dark blazer, finally...!

Early morning, I stood there with Phang Wei Ja and Suzanne to pin the "I-don't-know-what-it's-called" flower-thingy on the VIPs' shirts/coats.
At one point I was a bit worried that I might take too long or stick the pin too deep in and when I remove it, blood comes out or something... =.=
But in the end, all went well I suppose.

I liked the "lecha lecha" dance xD It was amazing and fast-paced.

And Form 5D's Lee Yit Mun was...wow...she got 90++ as average for almost all her subjects O_o
Amazing...she does deserve the first place xD

And as for me...I don't know if I was being over-cautious and all, but I actually retied my shoelaces before going up xD

Tung: Cynthia, don't fall down ah.
Cyn: Wah...if fall down...jiu gong (a.k.a. Lari Cahaya or having your p*nt**s showing)
Tung: When you go up and stand, stand elegantly. This is your Hall of Fame.
Cyn: And if I fall down, it becomes the Hall of Shame xD

Anyway, going up was no problem...but standing there while they announce...

Cyn: Jason, how issit? Standing there while they announce your PMR results?
Jason: Ok-lah, but it feels weird...I mean...they suddenly laugh...
Cyn: ...

Having the emcee suddenly saying Sejarah 74.5 and Fizik 70.5 made it sound uglier, but... I guess two B's are better than three...

Although my Physics was only 70.5, I think it was a rather good improvement (in semester 2, compared to semester 1)
In semester 1, I only got 64... and in semester 2 I got 77...so I guess that's somehow good...

My Sejarah, on the other hand, fell like bird droppings =.=
Okay, maybe not bird droppings, but dropping a whopping 9 percent is quite bad... but luckily my semester 1 score was there to pull it up a little...

After the ceremony, there were refreshments in the Library.
I went in and saw my mom chatting with Tony Voo's mother.
Once the VIPs finished eating and drinking, they left the library.
Along the way, they shook hands with me and asked me stuff in Hakka (which I am still trying to improve in) O_o

Later. my mom told me that she and my dad knew most of the VIPs...coz many of them are my dad's friends...
Ah...no wonder...=.=...still doesn't explain the usage of Hakka, though...oh well...

Well, enough of that...
With my 18th Book finally finished, (just today)
I'm on my way to BOOK 19!!!!!

Whoo~!~~~~!~~~!!!!

Later~!

Thoughts...

2008-11-05T14:13:00.003+08:00

Never mind the fact that joy has been tasted once...

...They will simply ask for more...

To be happy is one thing,
To be satisfied is another.

It is already hot-wired into us. When we get something we want, we simply want more.
Drinking an entire ocean wouldn't even quench their thirst of desire.

I know people are like that. I can admit that I am too.
Therefore I can understand.

But what I really cannot understand...
...is how they want something so badly, they go to entire lengths of drastic measure to get it.

And what I cannot understand nor accept at all...
...is the fact that I am somehow involved in this chaos.

I mean, what did I do wrong?
Why should I be the one falling into the river just to appease them?

I am not your bait, excuse me.
Just because you think you are wonderful fishermen, it doesn't mean that you will catch a fish on every throw.

...but it's too bad...

...The bait can neither complain nor resist.

Questioning life...

2008-11-02T14:28:00.003+08:00

Current condition: A bit tired
Current mood: .....

Watching TV and using the computer in the morning,
Waiting for them to come back,
Looking up to the shy,
I miss those days...

The past week, I've been reminiscing a lot...
I don't know why, though...They just...come...
I mean...now that I really think about it...
It's been 3---no...almost 4 years since my first day of secondary school...

Waking up early before dawn,
Brushing my teeth with my old toothbrush,
Putting on my blue pinafore,
Carrying my faithful school bag,
I looked in the mirror...
...that's me...
a Form One girl...

*Honk Honk* the school bus arrives...
Waving goodbye to my mother,
My brother and I walk outside the gates...
...first day of secondary school...

But before long, I became a prefect...
And even before I knew what hit me, I became a prefect AJK...

...not long after, I became one of the highest prefect AJKs...
...it's hard to believe, but it's true...
...the green skirt and smart-looking blazer shows it.

I used to follow orders,
From my senior prefects...

But now, almost in the blink of an eye,
I am now the one giving the orders,
To my juniors...

...I feel old...like I've been around for some time...
But still not that wise...
That's why,
As I try my best to encourage and help my juniors,
I also try my best to learn from them...
I'm still trying...

But being a prefect was beside the point.
Time just...passes so quickly...
My PMR exams felt like...just a week ago...

But now it is already near the end of my Form Four term...
What is awaiting me next year?

Packing my borrowed textbooks...
to be returned to the school the next day,
The odd feeling comes...
Next year I will be borrowing Form Five books...
I will be sitting for my SPM...
Suddenly I miss my Form Four textbooks...!

After examinations, Crystal often asked me in school...
...about what I plan to do after Form Five...

What can I say?
I don't really know actually...

After Form Five, I will be "free"...
...but it will be my time to walk my own path...
...to find my future life...
I won't be easy, but that's the way life is, isn't it?

Someday, inevitably,
We have to part ways with our friends,
Of course, we will try our best to stay in touch,
But it won't be the same as before...

When we meet again, probably many years later,
We would laugh and chat among ourselves,
About how many wrinkles we've gotten,
About how much different we look,

But what's the same is that...
...we will still be friends, right?

Tung once asked me in school...
"Wouldn't it be great if we could turn back time and restart the year?
That way we can undo any mistakes we have done..."

Well, sure, I think it'd be great too...
...but then...wouldn't it just turn us into cowards?
"...Tung, I think it's great, but I also think it's better if we just learn from our mistakes and move on with our lives..."

...at least there's the proof there that we not afraid to fail...

Ending this post,
It actually made me more depressed than I intended,
But I'm quite satisfied with the post...
Before clicking "Publish Post",
I typed another two paragraphs...

..."Change"...
I remember writing an essay about it.
The title is merely one word,
but it evokes such deep thoughts and emotions...

Everybody changes---that is a fact,
I know that I am not exactly the same person as I was before,
But I wouldn't say that I have changed completely either...
...I am still me,
...and I will always be me.

Bugger.com

2008-11-01T17:40:00.003+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: Very annoyed

Ishh...sometimes blogger really makes me annoyed =.=
Before this post, I type a very long and time-consuming post...
Suddenly Bugger.com said that it couldn't publish my post and etc etc...
And then all the data is gone...
I've considered re-typing, but oh well...

Let it be! (Proceeds to kick a chair and then groans in pain)

The Strange Feeling...

2008-10-28T17:37:00.002+08:00

Current music: DJ Storm & Euphony - Breathe
Current game: Insaniquarium!!! ...and Scarlet Weather Rhapsody
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: :(

Yesterday, I finally used my "free regular pizza" coupon/ticket/whatever you call it... It was Deepavali, and there were very few people at Pizza Hut... so ok-lor...that's a plus-plus...

Because when it's not that crowded, usually the chef will take more of his sweet time to cook the pizza and make it juicier and more delicious~~
So with that coupon, I exchanged it for a Hawaiian Chicken pizza, with extra ooey-gooey cheese~ MMmmmmMMMmmmmm~~~

Then, as I, a total cheese lover, put lots and lots of cheese powder on my pizza, got noticed by one of my waitress, the waitress specially tapau-ed a little box of cheese powder for me...for free~! And then we started a little bit of chit-chat...
Waitress: You are in Form what?
Cyn: Four.
Waitress: Ooh...what school?
Cyn: Sung Siew.
Waitress: Oh! I was from Sung Siew too! Please help me kirim salam to Mr. Ganesan, ok? *shows nametag*
Cyn: Okay.

Today, Tung talked about his trip to KK, how he enjoyed his Caramel Frapuccino from Starbucks (which I envy so much <_<),>

As usual, we got back our exam papers...but to be honest...
I really...didn't expect my Chemistry and Biology marks...
I thought it would be like a pitfall or something...<_<

And...other than those two I got back Arts :( , Add. Maths :|, and Moral :(

Oh well...there isn't much to talk about...
I wonder what will happen tomorrow...T_T...

Later~!

A rainy Sunday...

2008-10-26T19:33:00.003+08:00

Current condition: You'll see...
Current mood: Normal

Wow...it's a Sunday...
But it's raining...
But shouldn't it be called RAINday, then...?

Oh well, anyway...

After a long day, I slept...=.= a lot...

And I woke up looking like this:

Believe it or not: Those masks are actually for sale~! (Not that I need them, though)

ANYWAY...
Today, I went to Sabah Hotel...no cameras were allowed there, so I didn't take any pictures... Boo...T.T

But guess who I met?

PRISCA!!!
Yep, my primary school friend who still misses me and reads more manga than I do O_o;;
She told me that she was still having exams (since she studies in Tiong Hwa) and will get her report card next year. ...Whoah...kinda unusual...
Besides, she is also the girl that "quarrels" a lot with Jason, and both would tell me their side of the story xD
Jason's side: "She's annoying lah! In her dictionary, bully = Jason"
Prisca's side: "He can talk so much! And say so many bad things, but why is he so smart?!"

And it's kinda funny listening to these two xD

Back to the topic, I went in with Ms. Laurence and Dexter, took our seats on the third row from the front.
Strangely, there were judges' evaluation papers on the seats, with red colour, Sabah Hotel-labelled pencils...
Dexter and I decided to try and be "judges" and fill up the papers as the competition goes on... Just to get a feel of how it's like to judge, that is... xD

Prisca: Who did you come with?
Cyn: Those two (pointing at Dexter and Ms. Laurence)
Prisca: Both teachers?!
Cyn: No...the guy is a student...
Prisca: Harr?! He looks like teacher!...Is he Form 5?
Cyn: ...No, he's Form 3...
Prisca: HARR?!?!

Anyway, there were actually TWO competitions - the evaulation and humourous speech contest. In the evaluation contest, there is a "test speaker" to give an "amateur" speech, and contestants are required to jot down notes, and after about five minutes, come back and "comment" on their speech... Seems something like being a critic...

Dexter and I, being the naughty "kids" that we are, didn't know the names of the contestants, so we just made up names according to their appearance and behaviour... For example, "The Nun", "The Laugher", "The Big Hair", "The Bra Woman" and so on xD

It was okay, but the real humour came in the humorous speech contest (why do you think it's called like that, huh <_<)
Really, it was hilarious...! I am impressed by their natural style and humour... they could really be stand-up comedians!

So we gave marks according to what we think...some of the winners were guessed correctly, but some were...strangely incorrect... oh well...

I wanted to type more but I don't feel like it =.=

Later...and Happy Deepavali!!!

The things that go on...

2008-10-24T13:24:00.002+08:00

Current game: Back to Stepmania...
Current condition: Tired after school, but far less than during the exams...
Current mood: Mixed feelings...

Time for another long post! There's no specific topic here, because there's just so much going on!

First, the school magazine is out!
The Young Crusader, Volume 21! I was busy *ahem* drawing *ahem* in school when suddenly a few guys came in with boxes...containing the magazines.
Once I received my copy, I just put it in my bag and resumed drawing (because I didn't feel like reading it...I was the one who proofread it anyway).
Suddenly some girls approach me and showed me page 10 of the magazine...

My goodness...I saw my big big picture there =.= Not that I like or hate it, but it was...magnified a lot...
and the fact that my picture appears in the next page doesn't help either.
Some of them commented "Your picture is bigger than Mr. Patrick's" which is obviously true, but I find myself undeserving for that...I mean, Mr. Patrick worked way harder than I did in this magazine...(and it was him who adjusted the size of the pictures) so...oh well...thanks, Mr. Patrick...!

Second, school results...
For my English Paper...some of my classmates enjoyed laughing at my "My Hero" essay. Some thought it was weird and illogical, but hey, at least there's some creativity, no?
"My Hero" turns out to be a...monkey...=.=
So far...I haven't seen the worst yet...=.= but I've already seen the marks of my SEJARAH paper... and it wasn't pretty...
When I asked Janice, all she said was "tee-dot-tee"
It took me a few seconds to think..."tee-dot-tee"??
And I figured out that it referred to this: T.T
(A two crying eyes with a mouth in the middle)

Third, today's webmasters' meeting...
Well, nothing much to say, but it was mostly about the improvements we are gonna make for next year...
And then there's the news that Ms. Lat broke to us suddenly...
Well, I wasn't as surprised as the others because I knew about it (and so did Crystal) the day before...
Ms. Lat: Alright, anything else? I'll be waiting for my Pizza Hut invitation.
The very second, I looked at her...
Because I thought she was about to say "I'll be waiting for the website updates."

=.="... Maybe I'm just too tense or something...I really should loosen up...

Fourth, this Sunday's event?
A few days ago, one of my classmates approached me and told me that I was selected to go to some "Speech Competition" this coming Sunday.
I had NO IDEA was competition it was...I mean...it was so sudden!
Imagine suddenly being told that you are under arrest when all you did was go to school and live life as usual... (Though in my case, obviously it's less serious)
And I was told that I was selected by Mr. Patrick.

So I, putting on my "secret agent" look, walked downstairs *with Mission Impossible theme in the background* to his office and "interrogated" him.

***Note: No humans were harmed in the faking of this conversation***
Cyn: *breaks in the door* Don't Move or I'll shoot!
Mr. P: *raises hands to shoulder level*
Cyn: Explain the event on this Sunday.
Mr. P: W...well, they're having some kind of programme to teach you how to do Public Speaking. I figured that you should join...
Cyn: What time is it?
Mr. P: 8-12
Cyn: What attire?
Mr. P: Something formal.
Cyn: I'm just listening, right? No speaking involved?
Mr. P: That's right.
Cyn: ...Alright.
Mr. P: Join it, okay?
Cyn: ...take out all your money and put it on the table.
*cliffhanger*

Oh well...the next day, I confirmed with Ms. Laurence that I will be going...so...yeah...

Hopefully I can actually learn something from it...

I guess that's it for now...
Later~!

Post-Exam Syndrome...?

2008-10-22T20:36:00.002+08:00

Current condition: ...
Current mood: Not very good

Finally...it's the end of exams...
(actually the end was yesterday, but since I had to take the Arts replacement exams today I have to "celebrate" a day later)

My feelings...?

I don't know...I just suddenly...let go...
Exhaled deeply, Loosened my shoulders, Try to do some drawing...

...and suddenly, all these things happen to me (I'd call it "post-exam syndrome")

...I feel slightly ill...as if I just came out of a hellhole =.=
...and I guess that affected my mood as well =.=

For some reason...I feel...tense...worried...

The anticipation of knowing the results is far worse than the exam itself (that's how it is for me, at least =.=)

Also, trying to calm down doesn't help...the more I try, the worse it gets...

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Later...I'm gonna try Stepmania now...=.= It's been nearly a month...my skills probably decreased drastically...

A few more days to go...

2008-10-18T19:03:00.005+08:00

Current music: Lia - NEW WORLD (OMEGA FORCE MIX)
Current manga: Kagen no Tsuki
Current condition: Normal
Current mood: Nnngghh....

Finally...PMR exams are over for the Form 3...
I can go back to the senior block xD
I hoped they all did their best and didn't break down or anything...

Anyway, just finished my 17th Book yesterday~! On to my 18th soon!
Waahh...it's amazing it even surprises me...

On 20th March, nearly seven months ago, I was "celebrating" my 10th Book Anniversary

...Wow...eight books within seven months...(including book Ten, don't use 17 minus 10, count it with your fingers! It's eight books)... I find it quite impressive xD xD

Also, I've posted my "Mini Gallery"
...
When I look back at my past drawings and realized how much difference there was, there's a bit of the "embarassing" feeling...especially when other people see it...
But somewhere in the depths of that embarassment, there's some kind of satisfaction, realising how much improvement has happened...

Maybe...soon I'll post another "Mini Gallery", featuring what I've drawn from Book 11 to 17!

Alright, enough about that...
Now about this manga that I've just recently finished...
I don't usually blog about manga, but this one...It's one of those unforgettable ones that really have an impact on the reader...

Introducing: Kagen no Tsuki (下弦の月) or in English, The Last Quarter of the Moon
is a 1998-1999 manga (quite old, but it's quality is amazing) by Yazawa Ai (who also worked on series like Paradise Kiss and Nana)

Okay, the make it short, it's about romance between guy and girl, girl gets hit by car, goes into coma, communicates with a bunch of kids, kids help her "soul" to find the guy...and the rest are spoilers...

Don't be fooled. This isn't your ordinary "mushy, lemony" love love stories that girls love to read so much...(I'm not into that stuff =.=) It's intense and wonderfully plotted from start to finish. The storyline is amazing, the readers' thinking is involved, the characters' expressions match...everything fits in like a glove!

After finishing this series, I felt...gloomy... You know, that feeling when something has finished... it's like...a big impact on me...
the kind of impact that manga like Ai-Ren, Saikano, Shin Angyo Onshi, Testarotho and Hoshi no Koe gave...

It kinda makes me question life in a way...*sigh*

Well, moving on to another topic, exams are still going on for me T_T... there's still EST, Add Maths and Arts...about 5 more papers...

I can say this: Many of the papers were REALLY tough =.= I can expect to faint when I see the results...

Oh well, that's all for now...Later~!

Insanity?!

2008-10-15T20:48:00.003+08:00

Current condition: Still hanging on...barely...
Current mood: On the line between sanity and insanity

On Monday, the form 4 and 5 had their exams in the Junior Block.

On Monday, we, the form 4 had Biology paper.
On Tuesday, we had Sejarah and Sivik paper.
On Wednesday (today), we had Chemistry paper.

My thoughts: WHAT THE *TUUUUT* ?!?!?!?!
My experience in Junior block is *thumbs down*.

Man, the Bio and Sejarah papers were pretty much the "death blow" that made me nearly fell sick for a whole day, but I had to recover...somehow...
Chemistry today was---I had to admit---tough.

Even with Chemistry as one of my best subjects, it was tough. Very.

In reply to Tung's cbox message: Yep, lol xD When I have too much time I will draw, even during exams~. But when the teachers see it they shake their head...lol.

Anyway, my "bad experience" in Junior block wasn't only due to the *tut tut tut tut* hard papers, but also to the *tut tut tut tut* toilet.

Possibly ignoring the fact that I've spent 3 years in that block AND using the toilets in that block,
and most likely already used to the "slightly more spacious, though similar odour" senior block toilet,
I finally realised the difference between the toilets of the two blocks.

1) The COLOUR...
...of the walls. Aiyah, that one is not important, but oh well...

2) The layout...
I just figured out that while the Senior Block has girls' toilet on 2nd floor Block A and 3rd floor Block B, at the Junior Block there are 3 girls' toilets O_o?! Like an idiot, I walked all the way to the other block just to masuk tandas padahal the toilet just one or two classes away...

3) The door locks!
Ah, who could forget the door-lock crisis... The toilet doors...with no locks! And the distance between the toilet bowl and the door is so great that if you even try to push the door and *do your business* at the same time, your ^^^^ will end up wetting the floor <_<
That's one reason why in some toilet rooms the toilet bowl is cleaner than the floor.

4) The water leakage system...
I know this happens in the Senior Block toilets too, but it's more common in Junior Block!
i) When you ^^^^ in the toilet bowl your ^^^^ comes out from under the bowl <_< I mean, what the--?! It's annoying when your shoes get wet...
ii) When you open the tap to wash your hands, either no water comes out or the water comes out from under the sink. Waah...even the sink has business to do...

5) Last but definitely not least, the height difference?!?!?!
I know the Junior Block used to be a primary school, but that adds to my curiosity...
Is that the reason they make the Junior Block toilet bowls so *tuuut*-ing low?!

I mean, yalah lower a bit is fine, but not low until like nursery chair mah =.=
It's so low it's like we're going back to being potty-trained =.=

Imagine being fairly tall and suddenly siting down on a very low chair/toilet bowl.
You'll bend your knees until can't bend anymore then your whole body will "fall" onto the seat.
Now imagine the chair/toilet bowl filled with ^^^^ from others...

GYAAAHHHH!!!!!
It'll be great if the school's toilets become like Brunei toilets, eh? Made of gold~

Anyway, tomorrow will be Physics paper...
Oh no...................................................

Later~

Ten-ten-zero-eight!

2008-10-10T13:16:00.003+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: A bit dull...

So today is ten-ten-zero-eight!
Just got back from school!
Today, there was Moral exams O_o
I wrote till my hands hurt!
Many of my classmates could not finish the paper... and I had to admit... remembering those Moral values and their definitions were really, really tough.

Then comes the ICT paper...dang! At one point, I felt it was okay, but at another I felt like I did worse in my ICT than my Moral!!
So what's next?? Starting Monday, we will be taking our exams in 1E xO...
Going back to the Junior block sure brings back some memories...

Anyways, good luck to all the Form 3 in their PMR!!!

Starting next week, the papers are gonna be TOUGH...probably even tougher than jumping off a cliff.

Later~

It's gonna be uphill now...

2008-10-08T19:35:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Fair
Current mood: Neutral

Second day of exams--over!

Finally...all the language papers are done with. It's really gonna get tough from now...

Anyway, the first day (yesterday) was BM Papers 1 and 2.
Okok-lor...except for the "peribahasa" part =.=

And today was English Papers 1, 2 and Maths Paper 1
As Tung was "tut-tut"-ing about how he was lacking time, I had about half an hour of free time after I finished both essays.
There was so much time...and the rest were still diligently writing...I felt as if I missed one essay. (the same happened with BM Karangan) I checked and checked and checked...but still...

Anyway, for the second paper, (objective, summary and literature) I still had more than an hour left after I've finished. But at least I wasn't alone. I could see some taking the chance to sleep or just sit back and relax.

And then...for the MATHEMATICS PAPER 1, goodness! No offence, but the pictures were SO UGLY!!! XO
It's as if they were taken with a 2 megapixel camera and enlarged to fit!!!
I mean, how could you turn a cube into a cuboid when the measurements of every side are the same?!?!?!

Oh well...at least the paper could still be answered <_<

And guess what? After the test, one of my classmates told me "Some of the questions came out from this book".
And dang, I have that book too O_o but I didn't do the questions...

That's it for now I suppose...
Later~

Almost time...!

2008-10-05T14:00:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Normal
Current mood: Hmmmm.... <_<

Fifth of October...Sunday...! How fast time passes =.=
Last night, I went to Giant and met Brandon.

(note that the conversation is in Hakka xD)
Cyn: Hi. How ah?
Brandon: Oklor...almost exams...
Cyn: PMR leh...
Brandon: *shows that "don't say it..." face*
Cyn: So...are you nervous?
Brandon: I've already been nervous enough...until I cannot be nervous anymore...
Cyn: Studied too much?
Brandon: I study until I don't know what I've become. (whoa...that's serious).
Cyn: So, after PMR free lor.
Brandon: Yeah, the moment PMR finish, I will throw all my books out and the teachers will be like this: *shows a shocked face*

Wow...even a carefree and happy-go-lucky guy like Brandon faces that much stress =.=
Why is it that I still turn on the TV and watch for hours...?

Oh well...
Later.....

One week to exams!

2008-09-30T20:07:00.002+08:00

Current condition: Slept. A lot.
Current mood: Neutral

Okay...another pre-exam update...
It's now officially one week before the exams!!!
(Actually slightly more than that, but it's already night-time lah... no need to count this night)

Some of us started revising ages ago. Some just recently. Some don't even bother.
I suppose I fall into the second category...

As what many students complain about, they fall asleep once they open the book <_<
For me, I take steps to prevent this from happenning.

Note: This works for me: I don't know about others O_o Satisfaction Unguaranteed so don't sue me.

1) Sleep A LOT
Alright, I admit. This doesn't always work. Sometimes even after you've slept a lot, you still want to sleep <_< But recently sleeping has been doing me good, though :)

2) Music + Big, comfy earphones
People say they distract your attention so you can't study. It's half true. For me, music makes the experience more interesting, instead of complete, numbing silence. But then again, the choice of music affects you too <_< Don't take super fast-paced/loud/crazy-screaming music. You'll go screaming too <_<

3) Eyes away...
..from the computer. Yup, once I turn it on, it'll be ages before I can turn it off. And don't look at me now, I'm using ANOTHER computer to type this. I'll leave soon...just let me get done with the last one...

4) Television!!!
Your stress-busting partner when you can't turn on the computer. It depends from person-to-person, really... I can tolerate the television because I don't watch it often, and turning it off isn't hard for me (compared to the computer) For those who have trouble turning off whatever technological devices, better go study on a tree <_<
By the way, yesterday's episode of Desperate Housewives and today's My Wife and Kids beat the laugh out of me...now I know why they're top-rated!

I guess that's it...better now make too long a post.
Good luck, everyone!
Gotta go take a shower now O_o...

Later~!