Fear

Lyrics from song: 'Fear' by Sarah McLachlan

I blink my eyes and cough for a moment,
Great, sore throat again...
I finish up my homework,
Homework that had been piled up for weeks,
But I've only finished half of it...

I kept quiet...
The whole place is quiet...
The rest have retired to bed,
I am here, awake...
...lonely?

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Morning smiles
Like the face of a newborn child
Innocent unknowing
Winter’s end
Promises of a long lost friend
Speaks to me of comfort

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These few days have somehow shaken me...
In a way, that is...
I feel an unusual feeling...
Something between agony and...
...fear...

Fear? What for?
I do not know either,
But the feeling is just...there...
Fear for many things...

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But I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
Here in this lonely place
Tangled up in our embrace
There’s nothing I’d like
Better than to fall
But I fear I have nothing to give

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Many things torture my thoughts these days,
To put me through something like that,
Who's idea of a joke is this...?!
Even the word phobia scares me...

One glance at the six-lettered word,
And my eyes widen in horror,

One thought of what may happen.
And my pulse accelerates,

One sound of nothingness, of silence...
And I let out an inaudible scream,
Desperate to break the silence,
Desperate for a reply,

...all in vain...

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Wind in time
Rapes the flower trembling on the vine
Nothing yields to shelter it
From above
They say temptation will destroy our love
The never ending hunger

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A rustling sound...
I turn around...
Trying to pull me down...
Drag me into the depths...
Of darkness...

Darkness created by my own thoughts,
Imagination long locked up,
In a rusty cell,
Suddenly released...
Wreaking havoc on the victim...

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But I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
Here in this lonely place
Tangled up in our embrace
There’s nothing I’d like
Better than to fall
But I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
I have nothing to give
We have so much to lose...

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I cannot believe it...
A mirthless chuckle came out,
Fear...such an abstract thing,
Yet it dominates the minds of people,
Causing them to become abnormal creatures,

Is it not similar to anger in a way?
The difference is that anger brings destruction,
But fear brings the unexpected...

If I were to say fear is an illusion,
Will people laugh at me?
Am I the one with the bold put-up,
Or are they the ones taking the safe sides,
Not daring to face the dark?

I think for a moment...
I am entitled to my own opinion,
To believe what I want,
I ask myself,

What are you afraid of?

My imagination,
Released from its cell,
Running wild,
Answers:

Afraid of fear itself.