Current mood: A bit depressed...but oh well...

"She stares at the ceiling monotonously. She then closes her eyes and let out a silent sigh. Standing up from her chair, she walks towards the closed door and twisted the handle. Locked. It won't open. She looks down at her feet and was on the verge of tears. - Oh, what do I do? Whatever shall I do to unlock this door? - She doesn't know how to answer this, or even the turmoil torturing her soul."

"But the answer isn't all that difficult. It's just how you do it.
If the door is locked, find the key.
If you can't find one, get an alternative.
If you see no other option, you're not looking properly."


OK...now that I'm done with my somewhat-depressing introduction, let me lament a bit here...U_U
I may seem (for some unknown reason) happy, hyper, optimistic (whatever positive attitude-lah) in school... - just ask Crystal and Tung - but at home...the smile turn upside down...(aiyaaa...actually not-lah...it's weird to frown to yourself) but what I mean is that my mood completely different...

Aiyah...I'm probably just a bit crazy right now...oh well...I'm fine-lah...
True, slightly depressed but not to the very drastic and crazy point-lah... (don't over-think).

"She curls herself for protection...to hide herself from the outside world... full of stress and pain...she closes her eyes tightly, a few drops of tears forming at the corners of her eyes..."

Geh...I've been drawing and drawing and drawing...until my ninth book right now. (Kinda proud of it U_U) But for some reason my drawings are getting darker...<_< less happiness in them...weird...and I've drawn so much today I have no mood to draw anymore (for today, at least).

Sports Day tomorrow...(oh wait...today I mean...because it's already past 12) I have about 5 more hours of sleep available <_< (I know I really should be in bed right now, but I can't seem to sleep...) A few days ago I was a sleepyhead and now I'm an insomniac?! Whoah....

OK-lah...hope I feel better later during Sports Day...oh...oh no! Sports Day + Prefect Duties = Sun Tan + Sunburn!!! See? My mood never gets any better...

Later...

Reactions...

Current music: None lor...my ears are already sore...
Current game: None also...otherwise the same old games I always play <_<
Current condition (heh...a new one...): A bit tired, but still fine...my bruise is better but still looks ugly <_<
Current mood: Nothing...emotionless U_U

Beh...didn't really want to post, but since I've already typed this much, might as well go on ler...I guess I'll make an average-length post...

Well, I'm kinda glad that some prefer this layout then the previous one...but I guess that's pretty obvious, isn't it? The font is much bigger and easier to read, the previous layout was really dark =_=...so much black...makes gives people the impression that I'm emo...gehhh
This one is ok-lah...simpler and unique sikit...(Somehow I still think that the little story I typed at the Welcome part makes others think I'm emo also =.= but never mind la...hopefully there's some kind of moral value or some interesting part in it...)

Next, a little update about my big bruise U_U...it's not so swollen and black anymore...can expect a good recovery ^.^ Probably within 2-5 days (?). So far nobody has come to my class and have a look at my bruise yet, and that's a good thing xD saves me the embarrassment... but some of my buddies DID notice the bruise (since it's SO obvious, and I'm wearing short-sleeved shirts)

***REACTIONS OF OTHERS AFTER SEEING MY BRUISE***
Subject #1: Crystal
(I told her about how I fell down that day, and she thought it was really weird...you know, the way I fell down and stuff =.=)
Crystal: So got any injuries kah?
Cynthia: Got...(shows her my right arm)
Crystal: Wasai...fall until so teruk...
Cynthia Yealor...sakit ler

Subject #2: Tung
Cynthia: Ei, Tung.
Tung: ?
Cynthia: (shows him my arm)
Tung: ?!?! Yerrr....what happened oh???
Cynthia: Fell down lor...
Tung: Ameh...

Subject #3: Olivia
Cynthia: (minding my own business, doing my homework, AND unknowingly exposing my bruise)
Olivia: (was walking past me and noticed it) CYNTHIA! What happened to your arm?!?!
Cynthia: Hmm? Oh...this... (I wanted to continue my sentence, but it was cut off by Olivia and the worst thing you could do to a bruised person =.=)
Olvia: *pokes my BRUISE!!!!*
Cynthia: OWW! Oy, stop that lar! That hurts!

***SCENARIO 2 (still with Olivia =.=)***
(Crystal and I were discussing about homework, and suddenly Olivia passed by <_<)
Olivia: *takes advantage and POKES my bruise for a second time*
Cynthia: (wanted to shout but realizes that I'm in class so holds back to urge) Olivia!! Cut it out already! It really hurts-lah!
Crystal: (talking to Olivia) It's painful one ah.
Olivia: Hmm? What did I do? (gehh...)

Subject #3: Chin Kit Mun
CKM: (Since she sits close to me, on my RIGHT, she can easily see it...) Wah, Cynthia...why your hand?
Cynthia: (again, told her...so "cheong-hei"... <_<)
CKM: Har...so cham oh...
Cynthia: *touched by her kindness* xD xD (She the one person who would say that to me...such a good person...*_*)

Subject #4: Jason
(I sat beside him in tuition today, so again...he noticed...)
Jason: What's wrong with your hand? (It's ARM-lah, Jason U_U)
Cynthia: (tells him)
Jason: *starts laughing* Stupid-lar...
Cynthia: <_<..... (I'm not annoyed or anything, I don't mind actually, but it was a really different reaction from CKM's, don't you think? Total opposite lol)

Subject #5: Seck Ming Guang
SMG: (came into my class to fool around...as just as he was about to leave, he saw it...U_U) Cynthia, what happened to your arm?
Cynthia: (malas already) Nothing.
SMG: Nothing? Didn't you fall down?
Cynthia: ?! Wha...? (How did he know?!)
SMG: Aiyahh...so obvious-lah.
Cynthia: *stunned* (Wah...telepathy-kah that guy...?)
(If it's obvious, then the 4 previous people wouldn't need to ask what happened! It must be something with Seck...telepathy man...)

OK-lah...move on to the next topic (LOL...typed sooo long when I said I'd jsut type average-length...but better to type all I want to type now...later malas update)
I just passed the Language Week activity form to Brian (class monitor) and told him to pass it up by next Wednesday. A few minutes later, the from came back on my table... I took a look and saw it completely filled...So fast...
By the way, language week will be on the 1st week of March (but English language activities on Wednesday)...gonna be busy busy busy...

(During the meeting to decide on activities)
Crystal: Ei, Cynthia. Give me a suitable duty eh...
Cynthia: (Rather jokingly and evilly) It doesn't matter what job I give you. You can't disobey me *grins*
Audrey & Joseanne: (start giggling) Nah, Cynthia using her full power...
Crystal: Yerr err...*pouts*

(FEW DAYS LATER)
Tung: Ei..do you have a list of the duties and activities ah? I wanna have a look.
Cynthia: "Ei"? Who's "ei"?
Tung: *laughs* Aiyaaa..."""Cynthia"""
Cynthia: *hands over the list*
Tung: Whaaat?! Me...MC for public speaking?!
Cynthia: You can do it-mah.
Tung: Ei, yalor...can ge lah...
Cynthia: (thinks: Wah...Tung can accept the fact more easily than Crystal...)

I think I do have some more topics to type about, but probably not important...(but it's not like the rest of the stuff I've typed so far are important anyway...)
But I guess I'll stop here...Till next time...!
Later~

New Layout!

Current music: Sasaki Shizuka & Nojima Kenji - Mugen no Kaze
Current manga: Shin Angyo Onshi
Current mood: Ok-Ok-lah...not too happy but not too sad <_<

Yaaayy~ finally I found the "diligence" to change my blog layout. I found my previous one had veeerrrryyyy small fonts and very irritating...
So, voila! Here's my new layout. I don't know if you guys like it or not, but hey, I like it! xD xD xD And malas add songs already...I think you guys are also sick of the songs in my blog too, eh? Maybe-lah...
I also changed my cbox colours to match (somehow) my blog background. I hope I did a decent job...

So anyways, there's a LOT going on in my life (as always). Always busy busy busy...so don't expect me to post or modify my layout anytime soon.

Also, I have this nasty bruise on my right arm T_T. It is about 3 days old now...and I must say, it looks terrible...I would post a picture of it if I want to, but...don't want lah...it's mortifying... If you're in the same school as me then you can see for yourself...it's pretty obvious as I wear short-sleeved shirt 4 out of the 5 in school T_T...and the bruise is quite big (and ugly...) you're blind if you don't notice it U_U.
It really hurts...just touching it a little and it hurts T_T...can barely even rest my arm on the table...and to make things worse, I'm right-handed <_<

OK, you guys are probably curious, so just say it-lah...how did I get this bruise...
On the morning of 19th February 2008 (LOL), around 4:50 a.m. I think, (yes, it's early, because I need to get up early for school). I woke up from my bed, horrified to find out that I forgot to pack my bag the previous night...and I FELL ASLEEP WITH THE LIGHTS ON <_< (well, I've done it many times, but...gah...it happened again!)

So anyway, I quickly packed my stuff and went downstairs to pack my bag. I was still half-asleep and unfocused...and just like Crystal said, the staircase in my house is quite edgy, sharp and steep...so I went down the stairs in a dazed state...(bad move!) And about 1/4 through the stairs, my LEFT leg (see? the trauma was so strong that I could remember which leg! heh...)...so my LEFT leg slipped...something like how'd you'd slip if you stepped on a banana peel...and I came crashing/tumbling/bumping/falling (insert whatever hard-fall word here...it's so bad I can't describe it accurately...only through doing the action myself will you then understand, but I'm not gonna do that LOL) all the way down the remaining 3/4 of the stairs.
So of course it hurt...and I heard footsteps about to open the door, so I quickly, without second thought forced myself up on my feet and picked up my stuff and acted as nothing happened. Besides the bruise I also got some muscle ache...probably from over-stretching them? My shoulder blades and forearms are sore U_U...but I'm still fine enough to move and act normal, so don't worry lol.

Ok-lah, so just as I said, if you wanna see the extent of damage and amount of HP I lost, (wah...like a game, eh...) and the "paralysed" status effect that I have right now, just come see for yourself...

XXXXXX IMAGINED SCENARIO XXXXXX
A curious student in the same school as I am, read this post and decided to have a look. Let's just call the student "X"

X: *knocks on door*
Teacher: Yes?
X: Good morning, teacher. Is Cynthia in this class?
Teacher: Yes, she is over there.
Cynthia: *stands up and approaches X* Yes?
X: *grabs my arm and observes*
Cynthia: !?!?
X: Whoa! You're right! You do have a bruise!
Cynthia: *SWT* (automatically becomes the laughing stock of the class) YOU CAME HERE JUST FOR THAT?!
X: You asked to do that in your blog, didn't you?
Cynthia: O_o...*speechless*

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Wah...Whoever's reading this...don't you do that! LOL

Meh...it's late...gotta go...hopefully the next time I post, my bruise would be completely healed.....hopefully....

Later~

Difficulties

Current music: (None)
Current manga: Shin Angyo Onshi
Current mood: <_<...

Ok...I'm not bluffing or anything...so many things happening right now...sigh...
I don't like this <_< Yeah, I know they say that this is normal for students like us, bla bla bla... but that doesn't help. At all.

Today at school, I met Carmen...so spontaneously we just popped in a conversation...
Cynthia: Oh, hi.
Carmen: Hi.
*silence for about...two seconds?*
Carmen: So, how's Form 4?
Cynthia: *speechless...could not find the right words* Not......fun...
Carmen: *chuckles* Yeah, I get how you feel. With all those new subjects and stuff...
Cynthia: Yeah...
Carmen: They say Form 4 is the Honeymoon year, but Shannon once told me "From 4 is definitely not Honeymoon year!" and I totally agree with him.
Cynthia: *smiles* Haha...yeah.

Then my bus was there, bid farewell, and left lor...I could've smiled a bit more U_U" but I wasn't really in the mood...was nice to have Carmen chatting with me though ^.^

Anyways, Crystal keeps giving me "that look" whenever I give an extremely lame/dull reply to her.

Crystal: Cynthia, have you finished your homework ah?
Cynthia: Yeah. (rather dully, I admit U_U)
Crystal: *frowns* Come on-lah, Cynthia! Cheer up a bit! You've been like that since last week.
Jason: *looks at both of us* Yameh?
Cynthia: O_o... (Honestly I don't feel any difference in how I act, but it's probably that I myself don't notice it while others do...Dunno...)

Just to make things clear, (I don't wanna have ppl suddenly come up to me and say weird stuff like last time) I am NOT crazy, or a PSYCHO. <_< Maybe I am a bit depressed right now, but I'll live, thank you very much U_U

Which reminds me of a conversation few days ago...

Ho Yan Yee: *notices me standing on the high part of the stairs at the school entrance - I dunno why I stood there...* Why are you standing so high up? (In cantonese)
Cynthia: (Replies in cantonese-lah) Because I want to. Why?
HYY: Nothing ah. Don't fall down ah.
Cynthia: Don't worry-lah. I'm not that clumsy. ---(at least I don't think so...)

Well...I guess I mused enough...Haven't made a normal, long-enough post since...January? The rest were soooo short... Oh well...an update is better than none.

I'd be lying if I said nothing is wrong with what's going on around me right now. Of course, everyone have their own problems, and now I'm having mine. But I guess I'll pull it through...just have to bear with it... Typing this post somehow makes me think about my buddies...Crystal, Tung, Jason, Olivia, Haziq... and even those who I'm not that close with (but still in good terms - in other words, good friends) such as Carmen, Shannon, David...(weird lah...I just spoke a few sentences today with them - except Shannon but Carmen did mention his name in our conversation - and I'm already thinking about them...sigh)

*Slaps myself* Ok...Ok...back to reality...that's all. Later~ (actually it's more like "see-when-I-feel-like-posting")

.................

Current music: DJ Sharpnel - On the Beach
Current mood: *mouth gaped open but speechless*

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AAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
BBBBBBBBWWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ok...now I feel better... No details today, folks...sorry.
Just feel like jumping around, smashing stuff, and...you get the idea...amazon people stuff....

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Guess who's back?!

Current music: Fatboy Slim - Love Island
Current manga: None!
Current game: Same...same...
Current mood: <_< (A bit annoyed, but oh well...)

Yo, yo, yo!!! Guess who's back with a brand new rap...ahem...I mean...post! It's been nearly half a month~ I was working on my BM presentation (on another comp) and grabbed the chance to post this...so I gotta be quick before I get caught! The bad news )for me, at least) is that my monitor is definitely (and still) not working T_T. My CPU is a bit sot-sot so I dunno whether I can turn it on or not <_<...it's gonna be some time until I get it back *sobs*

Anyway, life has been quite busy...not that I expect any less for Form 4 life, but it's only the start of more stuff to come...this proves very very true for me <_<
I have my Art, Maths, Add Maths, Moral, English and tuition homework as well as my BM presentation to complete during the weekends, and EST project to finish during CNY holidays T_T...nyiau...

Anyway, I've heard that Haziq is going to find out whether he is going to KK or not...today...Gee...I do feel sad. I mean, I've known him since primary 1!!! That's like...9 years, man! If he does go, I'm sure gonna miss an old pal...

Oh well...I guess there's nothing else for me to update here...(hey, at least my blog's not as outdated as Jason's xD xD xD *hides behind huge tree*)

Ok-lah. Later~